A Guy's Crap is A Gurl's Cool Crap.

Moved out

2007-09-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

Not gonna post in here anymore.. please go to my site and my new blog is there.
I'll be posting there from now on. thanks for sticking with me.

my website is www. skiats.com

Disconnecter

2007-08-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

hmm…. for the past few days, i was unable to connect to my house’s router. Everyone else in the house seems to be doing fine.

So i’m not sure what’s the problem. Mayb the hardware overheated i guess. Therefore, i turn off my comp, went to sleep, and home that the next morning would be fine. Comes, the next day, i switched it on, and tried to connect again, but it’ still unable to connect. hmmm….. i thought mayb it’s just the router having some problem.

And then, i went around the house checking other’s comp, seems to be doing just fine. i wonder what’s wrong. forgotten bout it, and went to bed again. 3rd day arrived, and still the same…. i thought to myself, my gosh, mayb the wireless card really is spoilt. And so, i called Dell Cust care hotline, and the CSO asked me to try to connect to other access point so verify if there’s something wrong with the wireless card.

So, i’m now in the library, typing this post, so do u think i can connect to the internet? Yeah i could. So this means there’s nothing wrong with my wireless card. hmmm…. and so there leaves only 1 last possibility…..

which is, that my housemates BLOCK me from accessing the internet back at the house. However, i dun see why they would do such a thing. I dont think they are so insensible. hmmm….. need to investigate…. coz i prefer to give ppl the benefit of the doubt. mayb there’s sumthing wrong wif the router.

But if they really did block me, that’s just way too over the line. Dun think i can take it sitting down anymore. hmm… we’ll see…

A week full or unfortunate events

2007-07-17T15:37:00.000+08:00

last week was like a hellstorm of disaster, not that anything happend to me (thank god) but to ppl around me.

monday - Gallen was robbed, lost rm600 cash,his phone,wallet,laptop,backpack, and even his shoes.

wednesday - a junior from 12th college was conned by a china man within campus. she lost rm1200 and her phone.

friday - my godsis's friend's 1month old son passed away due to suffocation. caused by negligent babysitter.

saturday -my junior from high school,l Ong Tzong Huat passed away due to the bursting of a blood vessel. apparently the doctors have no leads on what's wrong with him when he was admitted into the hospital a week ago.

sunday - junior coursemates had an motorcycle accident. his lungs collapsed. hospitalised for 3 days and now he's breathing with the help of a tube.

see what i told ya. freaky, it's only the first week of class.
life's lost so easily. so treasure what's dearest to u.

peace to the world.

first monday=black monday?

2007-07-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

came up kl today bout noontime, reach kl bout 2pm, just in time for the lecture, but din wanna attend so i went back to 145 to clean up my room and unpack.

~everything's normal~

A couple of hours later, everyone's back at home, including gallen, nothing out of the ordinary.
saw gallen talking on the phone (in malay), and so i went into his room, found a piece of paper on his table.
It was a police report, and so i read it..... and then the person who lodge the report was Gallen.

~oh shit...~

he was forced into a green aeroback proton car, and the criminal brought him to the ATM and took rm600 from him. and then brought him somewhere further and left him there.
i've no idea how he's back now, coz i'm dun really know if it's appropriate to ask.

haiz..... seems like it's not a good day?
hope i'll be fine today.

Genting Gambling Frenzy!

2007-07-04T08:05:00.000+08:00

Date - 14th May 2007
Venue - Genting Higlands, Perak?Pahang?
Peeps - Lawrence,Teck,HockSeng aka Ryan
Accomodation - First World Hotel
Total Spent - ~100(food+transport+hotel) add another 50bucks donation to Uncle Lim.

Sudden decision to go, decided on saturday when we were yumcha-ing and left the day after on monday. met up at central at 730, which i was running late but manage to reach just in time. went up to kl. then took the 1030 genting bus. have time in between transit so went for kfc. lol.

reach up there at about 1pm. and so they decided to hit the casino, if we feel like it then we'll stay, or else, we'll just have coffee at starbucks till dawn. lol.

Went into StarWorld Casino at FirstWorld Hotel, went to get the genting card done first. then we toured around the tables, roulettes,big-small,3cards,baccarat,blackjack and some others i dunno what their names are.

And so, took out 100, and sat on the Big-Small table. play for a while, won a lil, bout 20bucks, then i left, went on to the 3cards, won 50! but lose 75 back. geez.

and so went back to big small, and lose another 45, then i've decided to stop. haha. i've always have no luck on gambling. and so, i walk around, lookin in while ppl are playing, big shot aunties,small fry kids, semi-senile seniors, and those uncles that looks like conmen. lol.

by 7pm, the guys are done gambling. Ryan lost about 30, Teck won bout 100, lawrence initially won 100+ but lost it all in the end. oh well. haha.
decided to stay a nite and hit the big casino later, so went to check in, the normal room was out, so took the more exp ones, 100+ i think. it's fine coz sharing wif 4 person.

once hit the hotel, i fell asleep, and the guys went to the casino. woke up around 2am, and decide to go find them, but on my way thru the lobby, bumped into the guys who were just coming back. so we went back to the room and they slept. geez... i couldn't sleep.... boring....

tried to sleep till 4am, then decided to go visit the Genting Casino alone. the lady cop asked for my id, lol. It's damn big, hundreds or tables, and there were still alot of uncles and aunties there at 4am! lol.
walk about , watch abit, but started to cough, due to too much 2nd hand smoke, so went back to room at abot 6-7, slept abit, woke up at 8, and went for the complimentary breakfast with ryan.
the buffet spread was so-so, not much selection, rice,curry,cereal,eggs,sausages,ham.that's all. lol.

check out at 12, went downhill, and straight back home to melaka. lol. it was fun, and my hand was itching to gamble. lol. haha. guess that's what they call addiction. it's scary. haha.

tHE long leave of absence.

2007-07-04T08:02:00.000+08:00

oops. that's what i would say. it's been so long since i've posted anything. lol.
sorry guys, been doing too much travellin, and gotten no time to relax and blog. haha.
i woke up today, open the lid of my lappie,(which i left it on thru out the nite), and opened firefox,
and then i saw the shortcut to Blogger. lol
and so i realise, that i've not blog in so long! lol.

so here it goes.

long time no see!

2007-05-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

seems that my fans are getting anxious, complainin bout me not updating my blog. haha. ok ok sure. i'm in the midst of gathering materials for my upcoming posts. be patient k ppl. haha.

here's what coming up :

firstly - Gambling @ Gent-Ing
secondly - Oriental Odyssey
thirdly - Merlion's Adventure!

watch out for it! haha.
cya.

BUsy busY WeekEnd

2007-05-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm, it's the weekend of Mother's Day, and after a week of nothing but boredom, i'm actually lookin forward to this weekend. haha.

Suddenly, lots appointment piled up outta no where. i have no idea how to handle it.

hmmm......
Saturday
1.The guys wanted to go out tonite, for dota and yamcha, but we did that yesterday nite, and most of us havin family dinner so it was off. thank god.
2.Family dinner - Keng-Dom Restaurant, with family, at around 8.
3.PP gang, going to Asian Havana at aournd 10pm.
4.Shaun and Phil's gang, going for dota tonite, at about 10pm.
5.The girls(wend,eeling,jace..etc) going jonker, around 930pm.
6.Juniors, ask to go for drinks, venue unknown.

hmmm...... so many invitations, but i cant entertain all, although i would love to join all of them, i'm very social, but it's just impossible.

So... this is what i've decided,

Family dinner is compulsory, and PPgang booked me since last week, so i cant refuse them either.
Rejected Shaun's invitation, tired of gaming, and dun really click with sum of the ppl in the group.
The girls, luv to see Wend, miss her so much, havn't seen her for a long time, but the timing is so bad... will try to squeeze in Jonker before going to meet with PP gang.
Juniors, rejected, only know some of them well, gonna be awkward if i did went.

hmm...... so many events to attend, but not a single real date, my life sucks.
dun get me wrong, i love to be social, i love meeting up with friends, talking, having fun, catching up, i love my friends.
the story of my life, it sucks.

brand new day!

2007-05-09T10:01:00.000+08:00

finally have gotten my sleep cycle back to normal hours.
woken up today at bout 7, was raining, lazy to go out for breakfast, so decided to make something.
hehe, done some shoppin yest, bought fettucine and spam meat.
since there's still a bottle of tomato paste still untouch in the closet, i decided to make pasta!

here is the recipy! lol.

fettucine - as much as u want

500g spam meat, crushed garlic, tomato paste, onion - add any other crap that u want. lol

ding ding ding! lol. it's done! woooohoooo.
made too much, couldn't finish it. hehe.
so full now.

sleepless... waiting for time to go by

2007-04-30T08:41:00.000+08:00

came back from dinner last night, at about 10++, since i felt a lil tired, so i went on ahead and go to bed. since exams had ended and there's nuthing much to do, so i thought what the heck, i can pig out! lol. so i slept.... and slept... and slept....... till 2am, which was when i suddenly woke up, and everything was dark. went to the loo, and then i thought mayb the guys went to genting without me, since i was sleeping. haha.
so i went downstairs, and the living room's light was on, and rene was still up. he was shocked tat anyone was still up. and so, i went to the door and took a peek outside, it was dark, the 2 Myvis are still around. My waja is still there. ok, everything's fine.

and so, i went on back to my room, realising how messy it was, (due to exam and i'm a slob), and i wasn't feelin sleepy anymore, so i decided to clean everything and re-organize my room before i leave for the holiday.

Here goes,
1.Folded up my mattresses and binded it with a rope and laid it against the wall.
2.Clear my study table - stationaries,books,laptop,coins.
3.Reorganize and repack notes,books and magazines.(too many FHM,Men's Health and comics)
4.Clean my fridge, wiped it dry, off it, and transfered all the food to the big fridge downstairs.
5.Packed up dirty laundry and clothes that i wanna bring back home.
6.Swept my room, very sandy and too dusty.
7.Laid a big cloth over the furnitures to repel dust.

and that's it!

It's all done. so i ended up gettin no sleep at all, took a bath, and it's now 852am, leavin kl in an hour, need to pick up chloe.
damn, i'm starting to get tired...how am i gonna drive.... back to melaka.....
mayb i should ask chloe to drive while i sleep, but i dun trust other ppl's drivin, mayb Jim's or Rene's but definitely not Chloe's.
hmm... how le..... think i should take a short nap now.

Happpy holidays all UMers, AIESECers and Malaccans!
can wait to get back...gonna sleep now.....zzzzzZZZZZ....

100th post!

2007-04-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo yo! this is the 100th post of my blog! yay! been saving this post for today, as it is the final day of my examinations for this semester. meaning, my sophomore year is finally over and my junior year begins in July! wooohoooo! lol.

been a while since i last post anything, been separating my blog entries so that i can keep track of what's happening. haha.
today, after the paper, went to have lunch sjean,hyean and christy. ate teppanyaki, yummy yummy. haha. then after that, we went shoppin around sunway pyramid. the girls all bought some stuff for themselves but i din find anything that i wanted to buy. lol. walked there for about a couple of hours and then send them back to hostel and i drove back alone.

reach home at about 530pm. went in and everyone's were so excited, and i was wondering why. after asking several times, they finally told me that they were gonna go shogun for dinner then go to genting! haha.
i was s o excited. so i quickly bath and then ran to jim's car. lol.

Shogun was how i remembered it, big crowd, good service, good food. saw a pretty girl with puffy face in the table opposite of ours. gallen and i were lookin at her all the time.
think she noticed it, so perv observing her. haha.

then after finishing shogun, the guys decided to head back home, since everyone's superbly full and not in the mood to drive. so i'm here! haha. posting this blog! haha.

This blog has been up for 2 years, and i'm happy that i was able to keep it up for this long. hope i can continue to share with u world, with my experience and my crap. lol.
tata world. take care. Muaks!

Good Friday

2007-04-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

It's good friday, and a few days before it, i was still at PJ, and talking bout it with Pearl, bout what's it's all about and where we'll be going for mass. i was going to Pete's(St.Peters' Church) and she was going to go to Frankie's (St. Francis' Church) which was nearer to her house. haha. we joke about pete's and frankie's for a while and then we decided Terrie's for St.Theresa' Church. haha.
After that, i went back to my hometown, sweet old Malacca.
So went to church on friday, and these are the pics. Saw timmy there tho, with his current gf. he went out with my ex after me but then now he has a new one in his life. so...congrats. not the same for me tho.

it was my study break, meant for student to catch up on their revision, but i took it as a holiday, but only for a few days, from thurs till monday, but being the procratination ass as i am, i took another day off, hehe, so i ended up going up to kl on tuesday. haha.

now back in kl, onli ter-ingat bout this when i browse thru my photo's on my phone, so decided to post it up.
tata.

...stop complaining....

2007-04-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

i dunno why but i cant seems to find the right melody today.
i can't make the words fit how i feel.
Dunno when was the last time i slept the whole night thru,
and when the morning comes, i feel tired.

woke up from the strangest dream,
felt empty and there's nothing anywhere.

But now i'm here and i'm real, so i stop complaining.
There's much to do, and i need every last bit of energy i can muster.

Do u know why i can't seems to find the right melody today?
I dunno either.....

Shoppin Spree!

2007-03-30T01:43:00.000+08:00

friday, went to MidV with Ping, wanted to watch 3o0 but didn't manage to catch the showtimes.
Instead, we went shoppin and makan-ing.

First off, Bata! Ping wanted to get a pair of cheap sneakers coz she's participating in Femmes' ExploreRace on Saturday. (teammates - julie,jace,Fae & Cyin). I saw a pair of brown semi-leather shoes which i like but too bad i was too broke at the time. Ping offered to loan me the money but i aint gonna take no money from any lady. lol.

Second, TOPSHOP! Ping's hands were itchy, so she wanted to buy some clothes. Went in and she tried on 2top(yellow,white) and 1 denim miniskirt. So i went out to the JuiceWorks to get a smoothie. Since i was holding a drink, i didn't enter back into the shop again. Suddenly, a gurl approach me and told me that Ping's waiting for me. lol. went back into the shop but concealed the drink in the bata bag. haha. all the clothings weren't satisfactory, so we left the shop.

Third, ZARA! we both went to our respective departments.
I went to the Men's department. The clothes were nyeh nyeh onli, not really fab. But i a jacket caught my eyes! It was a great jacket, deep blue, with double collar, a turtle neck and a blazer collar. it has dual utility, for both formal and Informal ocassion! Rm249. shit i wanted to buy, buy can't really fit....... damn my stupid ass body.....
(Ping bought 2 cross-link cotton top, 29.90 per piece, one grey one green.)

Fourth, MNG! I'm dissapointed after ZARa, so i just sat in MNG while Ping went to try on diff clothes. Lotsa ppl in MNG, saw some aunties too, dressed too inappropriately. lol.
Ping bought one brown top. 19.90. lol.

Go makan..... ate Yoshinoya again. lol. i luv it. lol. Then we left MidV, and went to MKTH - Malam Kebudayaan Tiong Hua at 12th college, nice performance, saw Chloe and Cmun performed.

Tat's all. Ping spent about RM300 with me within 3hours. hmmm, not bad huh? lol.

free KFc!

2007-03-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

hehe. julie's uncle is in high management in the corporate ladder, so she always enjoy free kfc.
this time around, she ajak me along! haha. so excited. lol.
at first, i wanted to eat popcorn chic,zinger burger,cheezy wedges and fries but julie didn't have the nerve to ask for so much, so she only ordered a bucket, consisting 0f 15pieces.
7 for me,hyean,Vi-R-Us and Jace, julie herself didn't eat, kesian eh? hahaha

this is a pic but julie's so happy with the pic taking session. she posed with a burger cover! lol
yummy yummy~

GWEW1001 presentation!

2007-03-19T13:04:00.000+08:00

yoz, now in GWEW1001 class, just finsh my own prsentation. scary as the word to describe it.
It started of pretty pro, with me sounding all brit and all. lol, data is pronounce as da-te. lol.
the response from the evaluation lecturer was good as i proceed, but half way thru the datas, she went dead. lol. i was like , shit this is not good. lol.

my teammates signaled to me that time's running out but i was too focused on the slides that i've didn't notice them at all. lol.

in the end, i overshot. the time allocated was 1omins but my teammate said that i took about 12-13mins. damn score's gonna be deducted. sienz....
lol.
this is the pic of the lecture theater, the group presenting is my coursemate's group and the yellow tudung lady is the evaluating lecturer. lol. so sienz......
hope i can get an A, this is an external faculty subject, if i dun get an A, it's so not worth it.

Assignments @ XingBaKe(starbucks)

2007-03-18T14:56:00.000+08:00

lol. hyean wanted to online, coz can't get a signal in hostel, so she forced me to bring her to Starbucks at MidV. lol. went there at about 730, grabed dinner at Yoshinoya, then went to starbucks. saw Hyean's bf there at MidV, and coincidently, he was mad at Hyean, so when she called him up, he didn't pick up his phone. she called like 100times, and yet he didn't answer.
pool girl. haha.

Went to starbucks, whip out my lappy, ordered their signature Caramel Macchiato, sit down and relax. lol. here's a pic! hehe. i have a habit of talkin pics of my food lately, dunno why. lol.

tata! p/s - caramel macchi was great.

Finally back at home... and "The Swans"

2007-03-09T11:01:00.000+08:00

yuppie! finally gotten a chance to come back home. lol. wanted to come back last week but didn't have transportation, coz i'm too lazy to drive back home alone. it's a long long 2hour drive. lol.
anyway, Julie decided to go back yesterday since today's class has been canceled.

actually, not really true, we still have moralðics class tonite at 830, but who cares? lol.
last week i attended the class, and ended up flippin tru FHM and KLUE. haha.
anyway, really happy to be back, miss my bed so much. lol. guess i'm a home person.
slept early last nite, i think about 10pm, then woken up today at 7. What a much needed rest.

hehe, tonite's gonna go torture scout juniors at their annual camping event. hehehehehe. can't wait.
haha. will take some pic. lol.and post up later. it's funny to abuse form1&form2 newbies. lol.
watched grey's anatomy latest's episode, and there's this song at the end of the show, "The Swans" by UnkleBob. very nice. here's are the lyrics. think most ppl can relate to it.
chaoz.

By my side,
You'll never be.
By my side,
You'll never be.
Cos I'm fake at the seams,
I'm lost in my dreams.
I want you to know,
That I can't let you go.
And you're never coming home again,
And you're never coming home again.
By my side,
You'll never be.
By my side,
You'll never be.
You'll never be.
I wanted to tell you I'd changed.
I wanted to tell you that things would be different this time.
But I see you, you see me,
Differently.
I see you, you see me,
Differently.
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again.
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again.
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again.

McD breakfast! lol.

2007-03-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

Sunday mornin, Drove to the Summit,
bored, the journey was easy,
woken up, care free sunday it was,
by Jace, took it in,
Who needed help. as tho i cant live another day.

Was onli 10am, IT mall was still close,
after everything's done, decided to have McD breakfast! hehe,
rememered a promise to Chloe, ordered and went upstairs,
and went to S14, lotsa old guys there,
to get her what she wanted. guess uncles like McD's too. lol.

Fish Platter+HotTea

2007-03-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.

And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.

You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.

It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Lust Quotient: 83%

Your lust is totally out of control. You definitely have let your animal instincts take over.
And while your unbridled desire is attractive to some, most people see you as a bit of a freak!

How Much Lust Do You Have?

Your Love Style is Manic

For you, love is the ultimate rollercoaster
And you love to hold on tight and enjoy the ride
Every time you fall in love, it feels like the first time
And while it's exciting and exhilarating...
It's also stressful and scary!

What's Your Love Style?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Big feast at MFM!

2007-03-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

on thursday, after our Micro Processor test, we decided to go for a movie and grab a bite while we're at it. hehe. so went to MidV on the evening, after swimming.
reach there about 7pm, so went for dinner, and we decided to pamper ourselves after working our ass off for the pass week due to tests and assignments. hehe. so, we went to Manhattan Fish Market! (MFM). wooohoooo!

we are ME biggy, Hyean and Julie! 3 person nia. lol. this is what we ordered!the hand belongs to Hyean

Looks alot leh? yeah it indeed was. we ordered a seafood platter, a ceasar salad, and a Almond sizzling "tiger" prawn. lol. the bill was big lol.
seafood platter = rm46.90
ceasar salad =rm 10.90
"tiger prawn" =rm 19.90
3xsoft drinks =rm 10.00
so in total the bill was almost a whopping RM120!!!!! (including taxes)
unbeliveable rite? haha, but it was a damn full meal. hehe. loved the fishes.

after that we went for a movie, wanted to watch Dreamgirls at first, but missed the time, so we watch Norbit instead. super funny, worth a shot guys!
lol.
that's it. buhbye.

I passed OUT! ~just for a few seconds~

2007-02-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

wow, haha. went to Biz Lounge on saturday nite. Suppose to meet there at 9, but my nap went overboard. lol. rushed out, no time for hair and makeup, no time for perfume, just redT and worn out jeans, no socks, only my new hush puppies. went to Quek's house at 915, and picked him up to meet the girls at Biz.

Luckily, they were late too, and we've gotten the best parking, which is directly in front of the lounge. went upstairs for the cozy couches, and gotten the same old spot we had last time we went there. all the way back, brown colour 3+2 piece couch. i thought it was just enuf, but forgotten YeeSiang&ChengJia r joining us as well. so they ended up havin to seat on small stools, haha. Gomen ne! lol.

Open the menu, and suprise to see that a bucket of Carlsberg(5bottle) = rm30. wow! that's cheap! lol. and so, ordered it on impulse, shared it with Quek. 1drank 1 bottle and he drank 2 thruout the nite, the other 2 bottle i took back home. haha.

Anyway, saw KHLin at the table next to mine, she look great, short-boyish haircut, fair, flawless face,grey sweater and jeans, very chic, i liked it. She was with a bunch of seniors, MY seniors from St.Francis. Felix's sis was there too. lol.

okok, back to the real topic, after my first beer, i jumped up from the couch, and wanted to take a piss. walked to the loo, and once i enter, due to the wall of mirror(optical illusion to enlarge the loo), i fell dizzy. anyhow, i went on and peed, and then i suddenly feel tired, and so i closed my eyes, just for second, i swear!
when i open my eyes, i was on the floor, at the corner, and my head hurts, i see there was a "pili air"(sorry forgotten what's the word in english), lol, think i hit my head there. i quickly check if there's any bleeding, lol. luckily, there wasn't. the pain subsides after a while.
and so i quickly stand up and wasd my face,several time, lol. until i'm awake again.
geez, i hav no idea how long i was out.

Went out, and pretended nothing happened. lol. what an experience!
just for the record, i'm not that noob in drinkin k, lol, just dunno what happened. lol.

Assignments+Lab Report = All Niter

2007-02-22T09:54:00.000+08:00

haiz. it's still CNY, but i've gotta finish my assignments and lab reports so that i could pass it to my friend who will hand it up for me.
Just becoz i wanna finish it in time, i hafta skip 2 sessions of AngPau tour!

First tour was on the morning of the 3rd day, the peeps actually visited a total number of 9houses, meaning i lost about RM50 worth of angpaus. ish ish ish.... teruknye. I was using the time to finish of Digital Design Assignment. haiz...... money vs grades, which should i have chosen? lol.

The second tour was last nite, actually i made plans with the PP gang, to go out on the night of the 4th day, but due to the lab report, i stood them up. They went a total of 6houses, so which means i lost about rm30 worth of angpaus, dammit. haiz, teruknye. So i stayed at home and did my lab report, which took all night. it was finally done at 7am. lol. so i took a nap, then on 830am, i went to pass the documents to Jace to be handed up. haiz... teruk, now it's 10am, i wanna sleep, lol. nitey nite....

Money flew away..... mind drift away.... energy drained away.......

Belated Valentine's post.

2007-02-18T21:32:00.000+08:00

nada - MelanKoliK.

Hmmm, this post is 1 week late, wanted to post it but wasn't around home and was kinda bz.
anyway, this year's valentine's is actually my first ACtual valentine's. Never really celebrated Vday before, mayb due to the absence of a special someone, or mayb i was too bz studying. lol.(i'm not a nerd k. lol)

Last year's Vday, hmmm..... broke up with my ex on november, so wasn't really in the mood for Vday, so it went by, with many coursemates showing me the stuff they rcved on the day, i only smiled, but i felt no joy.

And then, somewhere between then and now, i felt i'm once again ready to get back into the game, so i went out, venture, and it was better than i expected. Gotten to know some nice people and i'm actually feelin good. not happy, but good nonetheless.

So, this year, i decided, it would be my first real Vday. i'm gonna actually be giving out Vpresents and be in the festive mood.

Bought a simple gift, nothing big like 99roses or something like that, put it in a white BOX, since i decide RED is so cliche. lol. the originaly plan was to send her a CNY card, and the present will arrive on the next day, sorta like a double surprise. lol.
coincidentally, Drew and Ryan wanted to go KL to surprise they respective "other half" (they used that word). lol, and so, i thought, why not? And so, i decided to drive up to kl, together with my dudes, and off we go on the next day. lol.

Drew went to UKM KL campus, Ryan went to UKm Bangi campus, i? went to 1U to buy something to put into the box. lol. she wasn't available in the morning and afternoon, so i guess i would have to wait it out.

tick tock tick tock, and poof half of the day has gone by. Then i went to meet her to giv her the surprise. She was SURPRISED alrite. lol. kesian betul. It's just a gift girl, no big deal.

And then i left, coz she have stuff to do, and i had to meet up with the guys.
Overall, it's a good day, tho not what i expected but it's an experience.

I swam 1KM!

2007-02-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

haha. yup, went swimmin today, with HYean and Jace. i saw a total of 1 kilometre today!
unbelievable. i did 10laps of 100metres. amazing aint it? haha.
will be starting a new blog soon. look out for it. lol

Reshmonu's Album launch party ~ my wednesday nite

2007-02-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

another post about the same day, it was a long wednesday.
after swimmin, checked my phone, oops, fogotten i was suppose to meet Anand,Ruben and the girls at Laundry Bar, The Curve for Reshmonu's ALbum launch party.
the event is suppose to be start on 7pm, but it's now 9pm. lol.
so i replied and said i would be there in 20. rush back to 145, change into my party gear, then went back out, the other guys were surprised that i would leave just as i just came home. lol.

so i rushed, from pj to damansara, but thank god there weren't traffic jams, and i reach there by 930, had trouble with the parking tho, there were simply too many parking spaces, and yet the cars outnumber them. geez. had to park so far.

walked to Laundry, called Yvonne, and found them, suprisingly, there were only about 8ppl present, Rene,Michelle,Anand,Ruben(from MHS haha),Yvonne and a couple which i tak kenal. lol. turns out, there are ppl who r still coming, Ruben's 2 indian chicks, and the Bong with an alumni @ gurl. then another 2 dormant @cers arrive to celebrate birthday. lol

listen to reshmonu on the stage, he's good, an had some fancy hairdo, which looks pretty painful to me. lol. lotsa ppl were under the stage, we were at a table, just outside of Laundry. ordered a Mojito, haha always wanted to try that after i saw it on The OC. lol.

after drinkin half of it, then i felt my face is burning, damnit, i din have any dinner! lol. geez, so gotta lay off the booze, since i'm drivin alone. lol. some guy spilled my drink, when i was only halfway thru it, guess it's for the best. but it cost 16bucks k. reshmonu's gig ended around 1030, but we still hang around, coz it's the time for Laundry to heat up. yeah it did.

good tunes, good booze, pretty ladies all around. unbelievable. there were tonnes of chio-bus that nite. more than any other nite.
at about 1am, michelle and yvonne's getting tired, so am i, so we decided to leave, while rene still remains with bong and the alumni and dormant girls.

sent both of the girls back to MC. then went back home. and slept, till11am. lol.

was a good day, i get to drink Mojito! yay!

Relapsing

2007-02-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

yest, went swimmin with HY and HL, saw ah piang and some other seniors there. swam alot, coz needed to lose some pounds. wednesday nite session was also swimmin-koku class day. so Kj was there, learning.

Talked bout lotsa stuff with HL and HY, one thing in particular, i seem to be showing signs or relapsing, into my old disease.........................invading ppl's sms.

yup, i relapsed, on 1pm class, i was in the lecture hall, bored ofthe lecture, i took one of my malay coursemate's phone to play with, it was a new sony ericsson. there wasn't anything much in it, just some photos. so my hand was itchy, and i entered into the inbox. read a couple of sms, nothing interesting in particular.

then i went to the saved messages, contains mostly of forwarded messages, but there were 1 which was not a forwarded sms. i opened it, and the contents was sumthing like this,
"there is 2 pen in it, if u want me to be your bf, give me back the purple one, or else, just keep both of it. i understant that this aint easy, but i've gotta do this." - from Ash.

lol, sounds just like a normal luv luv sms huh? the prob was, the phone belongs to a malay guy, and his english name aint Ash, so there's no possibility that he wrote it himself, it must have been from another guy name Ash.
i was like WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWo, this is crazy, he's gay!!!!! if he's not, he would have deleted that sms already! gosh, unbelievable. lol.

geez, i can't relapse again, this disease is too addictive, i can fall in back again, i shouldn't and i wouldnt.

Rene's on the spotlight!

2007-01-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

lol. just found out that rene's on the cover of R-A-G-E website, local newspaper, The Star's segment for the young and hip.
lol. he joked bout is last week during class, saying that he's going for a photo shoot for RAGE. lol. we thought he was just making it up. lol here's the pic. lol.

it's rene! lol.

been having a busy weekend. will post about it next time. too tired tonite. nitez.

concerto owatta kara...

2007-01-25T01:45:00.000+08:00

it's almost 2 am, reached home and took a bath. tired, but still wanna blog. haha.

the concert was good, not very good, but still good. it's a showcase of amateur composers songs. duets, love song, jazz, rock and even rap, but all in chinese. lol. they have weird translations for the songs title tho. haha.

the first song was terrible, the second one was even worse, but then the subsequent songs became better, and there was a very good duet called, "i don't owe u anything".
lots of young talent featured there, and most of them are good. there were some rocker wannabes who sang like a duck being slaughtered. i almost went deaf. lol.

this is a pic of the 2 HY, but not taken during the concert
the 2 HY - Hyean(who was in blue) Hyan(who was in red)

anyway, midway thru the concert, there's a dance production, the 2 HY were in it. one was wearing red and the other was blue, they were both dancing in the middle. blue HY danced very well, i think that's why she landed the center spot.
the dance was out of sync, but it was a good effort, 20 ppl dancing together on a stage, amateurs, so can be considered a good effort.

chat about lots of stuff with Evon, stuff like her ex, my ex, phil, old friends, gossips, family and some other stuff. she din change a bit. still the same old her, mayb just a teeny tiny bit of added enthusiasm. that's a good thing, given the fact that she was so down during last year's incident.

went for supper at Sahur, talked a bit ,then i sent her home.
i'm tired, wanna sleep adi. overall, it's been a good night.

oh ya, Ting Chong aka James were featured there too, he sang "unspoken love". was really good, but his performance could have been better, he said "it was dreadful, iknow", but i said "u were awesome". lol. gave him a hug and then left with evon to go to sahur.

that' s all for tonite, it's 2am, i need to sleep, tomolo 10am class. lol.
buh bye.

K.

easy going wednesday

2007-01-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

today onli got 2 hours of class, 9-10 then 1-2. last nite din have a good nite sleep, tried to sleep at about 1pm, but couldn't doze off until about 230am.
recently found a new method to help me sleep, minyak kapak(some ointment)! lol. before going to bed, i'll rub some of it on my temples and the on my nose. the cooling sensation would help me sleep becoz i'm often kept up by warm nights.

however, that din happen last nite, put on the ointment and tried to sleep, but by the time the effect of it had gone, i was still wide awake, shit.
so, decided to wake up and continue doing assignment for Moralðics.

such a bore, but hav to complete it soon, deadline is friday. found a case bout Gemtec in Canada, gonna use it, but hav no idea what i'm gonna write. hmm... thinkin.... brain's still rusty, mayb i'm old. can't call myself a teenager anymore. lol.

so anyway, today woke up drowzily, went for tutorial, then ate an egg sandwich, then came back home coz Jim forgotten to switch off his lappy. lol. d/l porn i suppose. haha.
so i slept, till about 1215pm, and woken up just nice to get ready to go for another class.
left the house, jim with me, did a lil small talk, but nothing in particular, lazy wanna talk, he's got a gf adi, he can talk to her. lol.

at class, mahazani, young lecturer, dun know shit bout teaching, but we applaud him for trying, feeling hungry, so bought a piece of "kuih" and a bottle of water, and the drove home alone.
ah yeah, Jim went for french class with Rene.

now at home, doin nuthing, tonite going to "Da yau" something bout chinese musical showcase and dance productions. this is the tix, can't read chinese character, they din write anything in english at all, obviously it's for chin-ed ppl onli, should i feel insulted? lol go figure.

2 tix of "Da Yau"

have 2 tix, so i invite Evon, so long din meet up with her, wondering how it's gonna be.

back to kl again...

2007-01-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

after the wedding, it's time to resume my studies, so i left home today, early in the morning, reach kl, at the toll, no jam, i said thank god, halfway to pj, the jam occured, i said damn it. reach campus at about 930am, drop off chloe and hesitated whether or not to attend dr.saad's class at 10, in the end my laid back side got the best of me, and i went home. it's going to be a long day for me.

so i came back to 145, everyone's up and eating breakfast, suprisingly no one attended dr.saad's lecture. some lazy ass housemates i have. lol. guess birds of feathers flock together. lol.
so my next class is at noon, at IT faculty. after unpacking the clean clothes, decided to play a little game. then mayb have some breakfast. time flew, and it's 1130! dammit!!!!

packed my swim wear and then grabbed my lappy and left the house for class, the thought of bumping into her there crossed my mine, dunno whether i want or dun wanna see her, but i think it's best if we don't meet much. i dun believe in becoming friends after breakin up, too pretentious for me. blah..

reach there, her car's aint there, so went into the lecture hall, and none of my coursemates r there yet, forgotten to grab books, so i sat there hugging my lappy bag, doin nuthing until they arrive. so class till 1pm, went for lunch, then Christy, and the 2 HYs plus me, went to main library to do research for the Ethics assignment due this friday. however, our effort was futile,
345pm, rushed to engine fact, Mahazani replacement class.(he's smart, but he aint know any shit but teaching). all the while HY keep on saying that i look bored, and asking why i aint chatting with them girls, i said, low energy day. (doing my sien look). she was pissed. secretly i laugh inside.

5pm, finish class, went to pick up YS, to go swimmin, then pick up Yumi, coz she suddenly wanna swim, so we went together.
it was raining, and we couldn't get in, waited outside for about 10mins, and the rain stopped, so we get to swim! yay! lol. errr.... those are fake enthusiasm.

at the pool, saw senior buddy jason,saw Ir junior, one sharing the same first name as me "Kiat", couldn't be bothered to say hi, just nodded from afar.
finished swimmin, ate dinner at kk12, then came back home.

such a tiring day. low energy day, mayb my biorythm is all messy today. so sien, study sien, eat sien, exercise sien, even talkin is like exhaustin to me.
to this sien world, this is the sien me, signing off.

Sien K..

funny!

2007-01-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

this is something i come across from one of kj's friend's blog. it's very funny. lol.
apparently i have no soul, i thirst for love and ppl call me Van! lol. check it out if u are too bored. lol

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Preppy Name Is...

Brinsley Payne Pierson the Sixth
But most people know you as Van

What's Your Preppy Name?

2007-01-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

You Are 60% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

tHe ePitOmE oF sEx

2007-01-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

the epitome of sex

curious
haunting
hypnotic
unnerving
secretive
boyish
intense
pure
sexual energy
beautiful
chaotic
lustful
angry
insatiable
romantic
appealing
raw
free spirit
cautious
aloof

Act cool in LCCT

2007-01-18T15:53:00.000+08:00

haha. i'm now in lcct. first time alone in an airport. i've imagine LCCT to be more grand, at least about the same as KLIA, but apparently it ain't up to my expectation at all..
hmmm, the place here is quite packed with ppl, mostly local m'sians. lotsa suitcase tho.

i left pj at about 230pm, reach LCCT at about 330. so it took about an hour's drive to get here.
it's a totally separated terminal that of KLIA. when i was looking at the map, it was just beside KLIA, apparently, beside an airport could mean at least a couple of kilometres away.

anyway, i'm here, it's raining, and there's no roof-parking, only open air parking, which sucks. i can either run over to the terminal, or use an umbrella. since i'm suppose to bring my laptop together, guess i would hafta take the umbrie, geez, it's a UM one! teruk! lol. after i reach the platform i quickly shut it and tie it up. lol.

the terminal is divided into 4 sections, international arrival, international departure, domestic departure and domestic arrivals, the latter 3 sections are cojoint together, but the international arrival area is sealed off, meaning i couldn't get to international arrival thru international departure, i've gotta walk out the airport, and then walk towards the international arrival gate, and when i reach there, there's a a NO ENTRY sign on the door, WTF??? ppl can only get out, not in. what the hell is that. damn it.

so i walked all the way back to the domestic arrival section, which is at the other end, becoz there's a coffee bean shop there, and i wanted to have a drink and surf the net.

and one more thing, i wanted to look cool like those ppl who uses their lappy in wifi spots. haha. now i'm one of them! it's corny and pretentious but it's fun! haha.

my lappy+vanilla latte(not yummy)

i ordered a vanilla latte. and now i'm sippin it slowly while waitin for my sis to arrive.
she's coming up from melaka to LCCT too becoz there are going to be 5ppl coming in from bali, which 1 car ain't gonna fit all of them.

time's slowly passing by, and i'm still waiting.

to b continued (4.27pm)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
continued (1.45pm the next day)

the plane they were boarding landed on 440pm, but we they came out from the arrival point at about 540pm. the delay was becoz of the declaration of stuff and imigration qestionning. lol. mahfan.
so there they was, abi's sis and bro and mom and 3 nieces. so we went tothe car and left LCCT. bai bai! lol. still was a lil drizzling when i left.
stop at seremban rest stop for dinner, they say the food lack of taste(they eat more intensely i think) haha. then went off to go back to melaka.
after about 90mins drive, we reach melaka! yay!
brought them to my uncle's house. and let them settle down.
then i went back home, tired, hungry, and there's no food! shit! lol
anyway, so i went to bed. and now it's the next day! haha.
tonite having the wed eve party. let's rock on! lol

MHS gathering

2007-01-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

thursday nite, 11pm, Island cafe SS2, that's where we gathered.
all Melaka High Seniors and Juniors of UM were there, well almost all anyway.
hmmm...... it was a good gathering, meet a few new faces, apparently, there alot lots of MHS ppl in UM! go figure!
the turn out was about 30++, hmmm....... half junior and half senior, most of them were in Engine faculty, some from science fact, and 1 gurl from law, 1 from econs, and 2 from medic.
hmmm...... quite diverse the crowd was.

anyway, i ordered a Skol beer with Chang. after ordering, i realise, shit, i shouldn't been drinkin, coz my last meal was 12pm! and i did not have anything to eat after that!
but what's done is done, the beer came, and everyone looked at both of us, coz we were the only one drinkin beer, the others were drinkin juices, coffees, milkshakes and tea.

LOL, Jace shout out that me and chang, (both wearin red, sitting beside each other) who were also both in ESC (engineering sports challenge - engine faculty project) are drinkin beer! lol.
faneeee. lol

guess we are the only adults there, lol, it's not so weird having beer rite? what's the big deal. lol.

about half hour later, the beer is starting to kick in, damn, my head was getting warm, i'm feeling a bit iffy. lol. shit, i'm only halfway down with the beer.
lol, then i pass the beer to Peggy, and she finished it. lol.
luckily i was still sober enuf to drive home lol, and apparently sober enuf to write these. lol.

Gud day.
K

New year's comin soon

2006-12-29T02:49:00.000+08:00

it's 3am, on 29th dec 2006, the year's ending, in a couple of days, celebration will begun, and life still goes on.

hmmm....... still in kl, going back home at noon, with chloe. new year's coming soon, and i guess, i'll be at home, with family, as always. the new upcoming year, i think i should have new resolutions.

it's commonly known that new year resolutions usually do not come true, at least for the majority of ppl. but i believe that resolutions are good things. it encourages ppl to examine their life, and identify the aspects of their life which they could improve on. so it actually helps ppl grow, one way or another.

as for me, hmm.... resolutions are tough, and even more impossible to keep, i think i'll have onli a couple of resolutions on 2007, which will be declared on the 1st of January.

hmmm..... woken up today by Andy, he told me he helped me added a co-cu subject "Web Authoring" for me and he dropped my Swimming...... i was shocked.

Shit, i said to myself, previously i had promised to give swimming subject to Kj, since she likes it so much and it was accidental that i've gotten a place in that.
but now the subject is gone, and i've told kj, she sound pissed, i dun blame her, if i was her, i would be too.

circumstances weren't favorin me, and there's nothing i could do but just apologize and try to add the subject for her. been doing that whole day, since there's no class today, i've been sittin in front of my lappy, keep on refreshing the co-cu availability webpage, hoping i will see that there's an opening for swimming, however, it was to no avail, my effort was unrewarded.

hmmm.... went out for dinner with HY,Juls and Jim, at Prince Cafe ss2, talked bout relationships, boys&girls, money, and lots more. after returning i resume back my previous activity which was to keep on refreshing website, but there's nothing i can do.

i felt bad, that i've made such a mess, it's my fault, and not my fault at the same time.
all i can do is try to make things right, crossin my finger.
it'd 10mins past 3am, i should turn in, leavin kl in the morning...

K

p/s - the horoscope said it was a good day for romance, guess it wasn't meant for me.

insomnia

2006-12-27T04:22:00.000+08:00

sleepless.............sleepless..........sleepily sleep deprived, that's what i am.
unbelievable!
back in kl for the 3rd day, and yet i still couldn't get any sleep.
on the second day, which was ChrismukkaH, the day after that, is the first day of the new semester.

Yesterday, i couldn't sleep, rolled on my bed, watching time goes by, it's pass midnite, Xmas's over,
and finally i was able to does off, or so i thought.

i woke up, relieved, thinking that it's almost morning, mayb 5ish or 6ish, but then i reach for my phone, and it was onli 2am. Oh Mon Dieu! and i'm wide awake, i tried to get back to sleep again, but it was futile. and so, around 2.30am, i went downstairs, and played ff10, on the ps2.
i was wide awake, and i was on the game till about 5am, then i decided to try to at least get some sleep, becoz it's my first day back in campus, i wouldn't wanna look like crap.

however, i still couldn't sleep, i was lying on my bed, sleepless, awake. time goes by... and before i know it, it's almost 8am, and i didn't have any sleep at all.
gotten outta bed, and took a shower, shave, gel my hair, and then leave the house for my first class for the semester, which was at 9am.

before i left, i tooked a glance of myself on the mirror, damn it, i look like crap, my eyes are as dead as fish's.

now, it's 6am, the next day, and i'm writing this now, meaning that i didn't have any sleep again today, or should i say yesterday.
it's been 2days consecutively, and it's bad.
i need help, but i dunno where to get it from. meds? exercise? i have no idea....being awake for 48 hours straight is not normal.
insomnia, it's bad...... i feel like shit

luckily, no class today, can try to sleep later, crossing my finger.

K

2nd sem of second year, few post before the year ends

2006-12-25T01:56:00.000+08:00

hmm..... it's xmas day, it's 1.58am and i just thought of bloggin. came up to kl today coz holiday's ending so gotta be back and be a nerdy little boi studying in the big big world. haiz.

giler? lol. siau? lol. crazy? lol.

suppose to leave town at about 11am, but my godbro JohnD asked me to go for brunch, so i told Andy to delay till 2pm. and so, i went to pick upa JohnD at 11am.

i was mad at JohnD, becoz he didn't wish me on my 21st birthday. he was preparing for exams, so he told me that he'll celebrate with me once his exams is over, so i was like, fine, that's acceptable.

however, on my birthday itself, he didn't wish me at all, no phone call, no emails, not even a freakin SMS. it's unbelievable. and so, the next day, i saw him online, and i scolded him, and he act innocently as if he doesn't know what's going on. when i asked him why didn't he wish me on my birthday, he reply that he thought he was suppose to celebrate with me later so he'll wish me during the time he's out with me.

i was like, WTF?????!!!!!!!!!!
i burst, i did, and it was ugly.

and so, this morning, we went to Odeon for brunch. after we ordered, i told him that i am still angry. and he just smiled, i was like freakin gonna kick his ass and he still smile and said he didnt mean it. and so, i confronted him and lastly, he admitted, that he totally forgotten and he was trying to weasel out of it. UNBELIEvable!

haiz..... from then on, my rage turn in disappointment, and that's far worse.
he keep on saying that he was having exams, it wasn't convenient blah blarrrr...

urrrggggghhhhh~~~~ seriously????

And so, that was my last straw, i told him that life is never convenient, especially when it comes to ppl who u hold dear comes in the picture.
i was cruel, i was rude, and i was insensitive, i paid for the meal, and i said to him that i'm done. mayb this godbro thing was a mistake, mayb it wasn't meant to be.

and so, i send him home, and i left without looking at him, i saw him waving at me, but i ignored it.

I did what i have to, i was being cruel becoz i wanted to be kind to him,this is a lesson that he has to learn, that he couldn't take everyone around him for granted. i told him that ppl are nice to him becoz ppl wants to, not becoz ppl owe him to be, and he taking ppl for granted, is going to make everyone leave him eventually. I knew he was the only child, but i didn't think he would have such the single child complex.

and now, he keeps on smsing me, asking what i'm doing, asking me to take care, but i didn't reply him, i should have, but i wouldn't. becoz for once, i need to put my foot down, for better or for worse.

k

pArt1 - pre birthday{cameron trip}

2006-12-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

hello fello blog enthusias. it's been a while since my last post. last week have been pretty hectic.

hmm, for starters, went up to Cameron with the PingPong gang of ppl. CS,PC,YS,Quek, Ah Gong, and myself. It was one of those impulse thingy, we talked bout going cameron on sunday, then we decided it on the spot that the trip will be on! so the next day we went to the travel agency to enquire bout the price and transports.
so, on wednesday, we were off! yay! finally a trip during my holidays. lol.
packed up light and i'm ready to go! haha.

reach bus station just on time, bus's on 930am, heading for tapah. we were told that there aint any direct bus from kl to cameron, so gotta take a bus to tapah(somewhere in perak), then take a public bus to go up to cameron.

hmmm, as hopeful as anyone could be, we were on our way! hehe. so excited, but the worse is coming and we have no idea. lol. the express bus we took were actually a pooling bus, meaning it stops at certain city to drop off ppl and picks up ppl too.
so, we stopped at Seremban, then again at klang. The bus is suppose to go up to kedah. WOOOO.lol.
about 4 hours later, we had a stop at Slim River. went down for lunch but the food sucks, so ate a burger, which also sucked. wasted rm2.50.
a couple of hours later ,we finally reach tapah. Fuh, so exhausted. the bus ride we took from melaka took us 6 hours! wah lau. can die. lol.
then we took a bus and went up to cameron, by the time we reach there, it's about 6pm. hmm. wasted half a day just on travelling.
the way uphill was very very "bengkang bengkok". dunno what's the word in english. lol. winding? hmm... whatever. haha.

the rest is normal lo, went to farms, see flowers, see vegetables,see strawberries.
on the nite before we came down, my eyes began to sore, dunno kena what in the right eye.
hmm, so that's just about it, i came down to melaka with a red eye, the worse thing is, it's the eve of my birthday bash.

You'll never know until it happens to you, or at least to someone close to you...

2006-12-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

it's unbelievable! damn it. this world is so screwed up.

today was as ordinary as the next, but something's in stored for me.
woken up today around 10, and switched on my monitor. was relieved that Grey's Anatomy season 3 is available. so i watched the first episode and then carry on to the second.
hmm.... halfway thru 2nd eps, mom knock on my room's door and said Chloe's here.

and so, quickly get cleaned up and went down. then after chattin a while, we went upstairs to my room and we checked for her results, turns out she's pretty bright. All Aces. not bad huh. lol.
then we watched the grey's anatomy eps2 together.
after then she left to go pick up her brother.

during the time when we were watchin G's A,
my cousin came in and she wanted me to help her to transfer something from her memory card.
since i didn't have a card reader, so she left to go buy one. (it's cheap = rm20 onli)
didn't notice anything's wrong.

after chloe left, i went downstairs and overhear the conversation my cousin was having with my mom, and i was stunned. i stand halfway on the stairs and stood there still, then decided to go back to my room. after a while, i decided to go down and confront whatever's happening.

well, it's not pretty i can tell u that. seems that my cousin's husband has been cheating on her with another MARRIED woman for 4months, and now, my cousin has evidence of his infidelity.
apparently, it is a video recording the XXX stuff. haiz, how perverted can he be??????
unbelievable!!!!!

so my cousin decided to file for divorce and then leave to country for a new start. sounds a little evasive, but either way it's going to be hard, she just choose the lesser or 2 evils.

relationships are so complicated and it get's messy when everything's going the wrong way.
i've always heard about this kind of stuff happening to other ppl which i have no concern for, and i was indifferent bout it till now, coz this time, it's someone close, it's family.
the remorse, the grieve, the anger, the denial, and above all, the pain, is real.

but i think, pain is there for a reason, to remind us that we are alive,
cross my finger and pray for my cousin's to have the will to get thru this.

~ God, please grant me, ~
~ the serenity to accept the things i can't change, ~
~ the courage to things that i can, ~
~ and the wisdom to know the difference. ~

came across this prayer a few years back, and it had helped me alot, even tho i ain't that religious and i'm a science guy, but when in times of darkness, i couldn't help but to hold on to my faith, and believe in something which is bigger than myself coz, if i don't, the helplessness would eat me alive.

..CSK..

Post Hangover

2006-11-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

hmm, last nite went to Pure Bar with my Brother and cousins. reach there bout 1130, kinda late, so the inside tables are all full. so gotten a table outside instead. when the waiter came and asked for our drinks, at first i thought a heineken would be nice but they only have carlsberg, so i just blurted out Long Island Ice Tea. lol. dunno how much that's gonna cost. lol. hmm, then jessie ordered a Vodka Lime, hmm, sounds nice. lol.

when the drinks arrived, it cost about rm50
i was shocked! lol. hmmm, turns out, long island cost 24bucks. lol. should have ordered a beer instead huh. lol

the drink arrive a few moments later, and i was excited. hehe. i've always wanted a long island ice tea. haha. hmm, after the first sip, i realise it's pure alcohol!! no traces of anything organic! wow. ain't that fun? lol.

after that, my cousin's phone keep on ringing, it's due to her shop's alarm going off. hmm, so we had to leave early to check on the store. left around 1230. onli been there for about 1hour.
quickly slurrp down the drinks and i had to finish up the Lemon Vodka since jessie cna't finish it. lol. tastes too sweet for me. definitely a gurl's drink. lol.

went the the shop and my head is so heavy and throbbing. think i'm almost drunk! lol. but not drunk yet. lol.
by the time i get home, the alcohol effect has pass on. so i'm sober and was chating wif kj for a while then i wanted to go to sleep. at least get a headstart on my upcoming hangover. lol.
so woke up today, with a slight headache. but it's still fine. lol. stayed in whole day, watch Kitchen Confidential, it's awesome! damn i wanna be a chef! lol.
hmm..... now it's about 10++, saw kj online and nudge her twice, but no replies. hmm, think she's bz. whatever.
gonna relax and enjoy my evening. lol.

peace to da world.
K>

Tuesday 11am, once again i'm blogging... ^_^

2006-11-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

hehe. woken up at 9am. had tonnes of dreams, bout a lil bit of everything. some scary, some whacky. haha

then went downstairs to play a bit of games. till bout 11am, then kj smsed me, to confirmed bout the movie. so it's on. so i went to take a bath, then get dressed, and went for lunch with the guys before i left for 1U.
hmm.... reach 1U at about 1pm. went straight to the cinema to get the tickets for 230pm show.
Was gonna watch Death Note, towards my surprise, it's sold out! hmm.... the movie opened for 2 weeks already and still it could be full house. so i decided to wait till 2pm until the reservations seats are open.

went walking around 1U and decided to go withdraw the december rent to be paid to jim. walked so damn far to find a BCB bank atm. lol. from the cinema till the end of the old wing near the food court. then walked all the way back to the cinema and when i reach, it's about 145.

so i went and queued up. by the time my turn comes around, it's exactly 2pm! haha. i went to the counter and asked if the reservation has opened, and the nice guy behind the counter secretly ask me to wait for 15 mins by pretending to choose other movie. how nice! so i got the tickets, C5 and C6, 3 row from behind and directly in the middle of the cinema. the best seats ever. haha.

smsed kj and she leave her house immediately.
movie went on smoothly, and it was a great movie. have to catch the upcoming second part!
hmm.......after the movie, walked kj to her car, and then gave her the present for her birthday.
she was surprised, as it comes in a sudden, but i just say goodbye and i left. hmm.... awkward moment. lol.

hmm... came back home and the guys went to MMU in cyber jaya! shit they didn't ajak me. so bad. haha. so ended up i go to section 14 IT mall with ah yen and chow mun to get new games to play at night. haha.
now they enjoying their games, i blogging and chatting with kj.

life's good, for the mean time. hope it can last. at least till xmas.

peace out!

K.

Exam's Owarimasu!

2006-11-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

yups it's ova! it's monday, and the last paper had finished. it's so liberating. haha.
after the exam i straight went to mid valley with juls,jace,lynn and HY. ate at kim gary, then went shopping. discovered that sub zero is actually selling out TELE shirt! lol. went to buy ping's present too.
after tired of walking, we decided to head back home. it's 4pm.
reach home at about 430. went upstairs to change and came down to have house meeting. they wanted me to pay an extra 20bucks for my personal fridge. so it's fine.

15mins later, they said they wanna go 1u for movie, i was so bewildered! i could hardly catch my breath and yet they wanna go out again. geez, everyone's going so i didn't wanna be left alone in the whole house. haha. so, i went up, put on the same outfit i wore to midvalley, and in 5mins whooosh, we're off.

when reach there, went to the cinema, but the movie was sold out. hmm.. so we went dinner instead. ate kfc, was guilty to eat, too fattening, my diet program was so screwed up today. lol.
then walk around 1u aimlessly until about 7 and went back home.

fuh...... so tiring. wanna die. lol. go shopping till muak adi. lol.
about 9pm, ping and fae came, for ps2, until now still belum balik balik lagi. lol.
it's a good day. ^^

gotta rush up to give ping her present.

that's all. hugs and kisses to everyone.

T

i was stunned! mayb i was stunning. lol

2006-11-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

i'm been groped, for the first time. LOL.

Ping and Fae were here in our house, till late, bout 1am, then we went to Murni's for a late supper. onli the 3 of us went, the others were as usual out for movie, out watching football, and the others were studying.

ping drove, after 2 rounds around the area, finally found a parking.
hmmm........ then walked to murni's.
while we were looking for a table, we were peeking and tip-toeing to check out where got open space, so out asses we facing the road.

suddenly, i felt a person squeeze my ass!!!!!!!!!!
surprised, i turn and look at the person who did that, the person was a guy which i do not recoqnise at all. in the brief seconds, i tried to figure out who he is, but to no avail, i didn't know him at all!!
he stared at me, and he ask if i was "chee keong". lol. i was stunned when a guy groped me. i didn't reply but i just shake my head. Ping and Fae were bz looking for table too so they were asking me what happend. lol. it's unbelievable. lol. i told them and they laughed their ass off. lol.

ordered a supper set, it was great, egg,cheese sausages, fries, and nuggets and a mango special. UHHH! heaven. lol.
came back happy and bewildered, think i shouldn't be so excited when someone just violate my body! lol.
what a crazy supper. lol.

it's saturday!!!!!!!!

2006-11-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

haha. i'm so happy today. i've finally survived my 1 week of consecutive exams! if u din read my last post, i had 1paper each from monday to saturday!

whoah!!!! i'm so relieved that i've passed thru it without any disaster. think i should do fine this semester. hehehehe. (crossin me finga) haha.

my last paper will be on monday. then it'll be party time! yay! haha.
gonna try to go Luna, La Bodega and mayb LaundrY. haha.
hmm.... movie's a must too. karaoke if the others want too. haha

for now need to contain my excitement to concentrate on my last paper. will post more soon!

infinite Xs and Os.

T

Exams Exams` Exams ~sigh~

2006-11-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

hmm...... it's saturday, first paper just done yesterday.
quite happy bout that paper, think i did fine. can answer most of it. so should be able to get at least a B. hmm..... the upcoming week is the difficult to get thru.
having 6 papers consecutively from monday till saturday. crazy huh? can't do anything bout it.
bad arrangement i think. haiz......
gonna try to finish off as much studying i can do before monday. since can't do much next week.
7 papers more to go.

wish me luck! hugs.

T

god's good at irony

2006-11-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

lost my phone a couple of hours ago. it was a new nokia n73 and i have gotten hold of it onli yesterday. and now it's gone.

it's been a long time since i last took the bus backto melaka. and true enuf, i should have never taken the bus.

after coming down from bus, it was with me, while walking pass pudu, it was with me, at lrt station buying ticket, it was with me, while waiting for lrt, it was with me, as soon as i enter the lrt, it's gone.

i saw a guy in orange shirt, looking at me thru the glass door from the outside of the lrt. guess it was him.

i've never rcv anything new in my life, the moment i got it, it's gone.
i've always said that being the youngest one, i've always been using second hand stuff, and this time, it prooves that i really ain't meant to use new stuff.

it's a bad day. i've lost my mood, and i've got no mood to do anything, anything at all.
hope i'll be fine tomolo.

god has very good sense of humour, but it ain't funny at all.

Drowzy daze....

2006-11-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

today has been very unfruitful. slept at 6am, woken up at 2pm, didn't study.
ate a bowl of instant noodle and then hang around the house doing nothing. about 4pm went back to room and felt dizzy, so decided to sleep again. then woke up at 8++, not feeling hungry, so no dinner today. (guess can save some money today). hmm..... not feeling well, think i'm coming down with something. gonna try to get thru it before the exams. mayb it's the weather, mayb it's just my body having a strike. dunno what's up.
...........hmm.......... anyway, for anyone that cares, thanks for reading. low on energy today, can't help it. the house is so noisy, some ppl playing games, some ppl shouting even tho he knows i'm sleeping, some ppl been cooking all night long, some one is now blasting music like a club.
i'm pissed, but i'm low on energy, i've got no strength to do anything, not even stand up for myself.
.......sigh.......

T

Procrastinated Post

2006-10-31T01:43:00.000+08:00

it's been a few days since my last blog. kinda difficult to get online, coz my comp broke (if ya been followin my blog you'll know), then housemates ain't that keep to lend me some internet time, then the internet router was busted. hmm.......... overall it's just pretty darn troublesome to blog.

well, thought of posting something tonite. for the past few days, been struggling to study, onli manage to get a lil bit done, but tonite, manage to cover alot so i'm feelin good.

a few stuff bout the past few days :

saturday - woke up early about 9 coz had nightmare bout car being stolen, went down and hav some PS2 time. and went for lunch. then almost dinner time, HY ask me whether wanan go WongKok for dinner with another HY, so i agreed, then suddenly she sms me saying that another 3 girls wanna follow and i tak kenal them. so i said it's alrite. never hurt to get to know more ppl. (i said girl actually) lol.
sun came down and off i went to ss2, and when i reach there i parked beside the wongkok building. i know i need to pay to park there. waited a short while and the girls arrived. went in, ordered and intro, blah blah blah. they were chatting bout their own stuff thruout the dinner so i was a little bored, guess HY noticed and later sent me an sms to apologize. it was nothing really. just wasn't interested in girl talk that day. came back home and went online and saw KJ was online so chat with her. everything went smoothly till i said something bout her and her HY and she just dropped outta of the msn suddenly before i could apologize. drop her a sms to say sorry later but she didn't reply.felt bad .... then went to sleep.

sunday - woken up by a nightmare again about car being stolen, but not the same senario. geez did i "zhong chie" or what. hmm..... sunday nothing much .study study but didn't get to do much, played games, chat with ppl. trying to send the vids to EL but file too big need to convert. too mahfan so lazy wanna do. KJ drop by on the evening and saw something interesting. a pleasant surprise i might add. at night watch tv, suprisingly local tv has become quite interesting. about 2am, went to Chow Mun's room and chat with him, then jim join in, so did Ah kat. we talked bout all stuff, friends, gals, rumours, dreams, and alot of crap.

today(monday) - we talked till 6am and we went for breakfast at ss2 market. so cheap was the food there, soy bean milk + friend beehoon onli rm2. unbelievable? believe it. lol
then came back too sleep.
woken up at about 2pm, and then sms KJ to wish her luck on her event. then realise my fridge was empty. so decided to go midV to resupply, as usual, no one in the house wanted to go except for Jim. so we 2guys went to MV to have a late lunch at about 3pm and then went for groceries shopping. came back home at about evening time, rested a while and took a bath. the others went for dinner, when they are back, heard them saying KJ's name and i went outside. KJ was at the front of the house talking to Jim. guess she just drop by after to show us the real thing
, radical but stylish.
after talking to KJ then continue study and manage to do alot so i was happy. went down to watch tv adn "HERO" was on.
overall it's a good day. but let's see what awaits me tomolo.
peace to the world,
good health to my family,
and sleep tight everyone.

K

2.36am, can't seems to sleep

2006-10-26T02:36:00.000+08:00

said goodnite to kj on msn. but couldn't sleep. rustling under the covers, and alot of stuff ran thru my mind. and i remembered, about some sms i rcved a few weeks back, from my ex.

after the breakup, we seldom contact each other. it was too awkward, mayb it was too akward to me, dunno bout her. it feels too weird to be around her, so i decided then that i will not contact her or go out with her, even tho it's with a group of friends. i know it was cruel, but it was what i needed to recover, to reorganize my thoughts, to get my life back on track.
but lately, i think i'm already recovered, and i finally be able to sit in the same table as she and still feels normal and i've actually talked to her, without all the weird feelings anymore, and i'm glad.

about the sms i rcvd, the first one she sent was "do you think u are matured?"
it was an odd sounding sms. and i replied "don't think so kua, mayb a lil about avarage. why u ask"
......... she replied that she thinks i'm still the best person to talk to as i always have very good opinions and i know how to convince ppl. hmm...... so i thanked her and ask if she's having any problem and she said just a minor problem and didn't share it with me.

after that, something struck my mind, this situation seems very familiar.
it's the same thing happend during the difficult times i had with her. at that time, she had another guy who's treating her better than me, a person she said that gave her the feeling that i should be giving her. therefore, she keeps on asking me to spend more time with her, complaining that i didn't accompany her enuf. so, i thought to myself, mayb i really am oblivious to her needs, and therefore i tried to change, i brought up transport from melaka so that i can go to ther college, we went out, we went back to our hometown together, we talked on the phone, we sms almost every minute, and i never miss to wish her goodnight or goodmorning.

however, it was never enuf. time and time she creates drama, she cries, she complained, and i felt guilty all the time, it affected me more that i think it would. everything was falling apart in my life. i've tried to make it work, but it just doesn't fit. she wants me to make HER my life, but what i want is just to make room for her to be in my life. at that time, i had my hand fulls with alot of stuff, coping with new environments, struggling with studies, missing home, adjusting to living in a hostel and much much more.
but she didn't give me a break. so i decided to break it off.
she hurt me in a way i have never think was possible. it took me a year just to feel back to normal. guess i'm a fragile person, even though i have tough exterior.

didn't think i've blog anything about this before, it happend a year before, right about this time.
come to think of it, i'm glad that i've grown much for the past year, and it's all good now.

lifting the ban instruction

2006-10-25T14:26:00.000+08:00

today i woke up, with a clear mind, and not much stress, so it's going to be a good day to study.
the wheather's nice, hope it would be a good day.

browsing thru my blog entries, i found 2 post which i didn't publish, forgotten the reason why, so i opened it and read thru the content, then i realise, why i didn't publish it, but then again, it's all in the pass. but it wasn't long ago, it was on may.

i thought bout it for a short time, and then i've decided to publish it. it's my past, and it's very real..for me, i would like to read thru it so that i can remind myself of what happend to me in the past, what i shoulda,coulda and woulda do. now it's almost exam time again, and now i'm facing the ghost of my past.

it's a good thing that i accidentally came across those post that i didn't publish. it strucked me that how far i've come, how silly was my mentality, how weak i was.

but now it's different, i'll not let my pass dictate what i will do, but let it be a guidance of future decisions.
i'm no longer the old kiats. that entry reminded me of that. and i'm glad.

~k~

realisations and relfection

2006-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

was free tonite, so i went online and read thru a friend's blog. found that there's lots of important stuff in it. i came to realise that having a blog could have much more meaning to it. she wrote bout her life, her problems, health, relationship, conflicts and much much more. it's very intimate and i could only wish if i were to have such courage to pen down my inner self.

there's tonnes of stuff i wish to write, but i couldn't. somehow the thoughts doesn't translate well into words. guess i'm just not good at expressing my true feelings.
anyhow, since my blog is not such a hotspot, i would try to reveal my deepest thoughts here.
don't really care who reads it, but just so i could have something to recall what was on my mind.
so that's my resolution, whether or not if it's going to be done, we'll find out soon.

Deeparaya VS study break

2006-10-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

i'm fighting a losing battle. started very enthusiatic bout coming back home for the holidays. then when i first reach melaka, i was tired and went to sleep straight away. my bed was so comfy. it's been so damn long since i'm back home. OOps. haha i came back 2 weeks ago. lol

oh well, then the next morning, ppl from UM arrived in melaka, and went to entertain them, eat walk and eat summore. till the next day 6pm. superbly tiring and i got sunburn on my cheeks. damn it. then kena ulser. celaka.

haiz, then everyone in the family is back for this break, so in the house is just makan makan and more makan. my diet plan is falling apart. haizzzz..... then busy talking and playing mahjong with bro and sis so didn't study.

last nite went to Pao's birthday bash and i was weird at first but it was cool after a while. met a friend i haven't seen since standard 6, couldn't recognize him at all. but it was all good.

damn i will fail this sem, god help me!!!1

Wednesday at home.

2006-10-18T14:58:00.000+08:00

today went to ODE(ordinary differential equation) and circuit analysis 2 tutorials. then after the class, on the way to go take car, Hui yean ask me if i wanted a replacement monitor.
and then she offered to GIVE me her old monitor which is a semi-new 17" CRT monitor which is still in good condition. she doesn't need it anymore since she bought a new LCD screen.
well i was surprised and embarassed at the same time. i feel like a charity case and at the same time i was touched. she said that she no longer used the monitor and since i always fetch her for shopping and always pay for stuff, so she feels like giving me something back.

i was so paiseh sekali, i actually say "ha???" and i think my facial expression was abit over-done. haha. i think she might feel a little offended.

however, i couldn't recv something so big as a monitor which cost about 300bucks. it's too much, especially from a normal friend. so i said i'm going home to buy a new lcd screen. then she just shut up and we went our seperate ways since we park our cars separately. hmmm....i couldn't help but wonder, why we always want someone to appreciate out good deeds, but when the appreciation comes, we feel so uncomfortable?

guess this is just another god's good irony joke.

haiz...Trey

ultimate boredom aka weekend in pj...

2006-10-14T16:58:00.000+08:00

it's saturday and it's sososososososososososososo superbly boring. woke up at 10, ate breakfast and wanted to go hijack comp but everyone's still asleep. went downstairs and chow mun also still asleep. surprised to see jim was sound asleep on the couch. guess he partied too much with a+m+v(anand+michelle+von). lol. since jim's there, couldn't really switch on the tv to watch some cartoon. hmmm...... boring......

so went back into my room, lie on the bed, staring into the ceiling, doing nothing. and fell asleep.
woke up around noon, everyone's up by now and wanted to go lunch, i wasn't hungry, so i skipped lunch today. so, once again, the house is empty, and boring......

so i open the fridge and took out the apples which i bought the other day, and to find that half of it have gone bad. haiz.... waste of money. after about an hour has passed, the guys are back, so i went to chow mun's room to borrow his comp to use. he's such a nice person. i can swear that none of my housemates like it when i asked to borrow their comp for a while, except for the kind chow mun who actually offered his laptop to me. i was touched.

so i went online, sign in onto msn, wanted to complain to kj, but she wasn't around. then onli i remembered, that she must have gone to the reception for @ ppl. just like rene and nick.
so i signed out, then chowmun installed a new rpg game. which is quite nice. but it's in chinese. so no fun for me. haiz... what a tease..... and yet again......boring......

so i went back to my room, again lie on my bed, and the doze off at about 3pm. geez i can be a pig if i wanted to. lol. and now i'm up, about 5, finding chowmun in his room, studying, so i borrowed his comp to post this, so that i'll remember how boring was my life, how boring the weekend is in pj. how boring i was, when my computer gave up on me.

b-o-r-i-n-g

trey

Thursday with Trey not Morrie

2006-10-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.......... sleep relatively well today. woken up twice during the night, but woke up feelin pretty good. had some dream bout the horror movie i saw last night "The Shutter". a thailand horror movie bout a ghost haunting the boyfriend. it was a good show.

since my comp is down, i'm always lookin for opportunity to use other ppl's comp. Simon just left the house for some promotional activities so i get to use his comp. hmmm..... he's back already tho. haha
today i woke up, with no worries, event tho i'm having a econs quiz later at 8.
dunno why, dunno whether i'm in denial or i'm just indifferent.
anyway, i'm glad that it's a good day today. i'll just take it as it is. Don't really wanna put any thoughts into it as it would just spoil my day. so it's gonna be a carefree day.
if u see me by the road, feel free to shout at me. i might not even notice it. lol.

simon's back = i've gotta run.
life as a comp hijacker is so bad...
haiz...

After a good night sleep

2006-10-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

Yest i was feelin very down and confused, plus i was preparing for a test today. everything was very messy and i wasn't really myself. it's one of those low points in your life. luckily i didn't do anything crazy.
This morning i woke up feelin refreshed, and stress free. it was great. i wonder why was i so down last night...

Today i didn't have any class. so i slept till almost noon and woke up to continue to study for the test which will be on 5pm. I went to switch on my computer, but it wasn't working, my comp has died out on me. guess it sense that i need the time to study and not surfing the net.
anyway, ididn't care much for it, so i continue to pour some cereal as brunch while flippin thru my notes.

as time goes by, i began to feel bored, and i tried to resucitate my comp but the effort was futile.
so, i did the next best thing, i whack the monitor(the prob was the monitor), hoping it would
be back to normal, but it didn't. haiz.....

so, i went to sleep, waking up at 4, and did some last minute preparations for the test and left the house at 430. the test was disastorous, but it was the same for everyone, so it doesn't matters.

after the test, after dinner, after all the routine activities, i realised that without my computer, i'm a very very much of a person in boredom. i keep on walking around the house, doing nothing, i event watch the NEWS! on tv.... pathetic? i know!.... then i couldn't bear it any longer, so i went around and begging my housemates to lend me their comps for a little while. none of them are happy bout it, but i couldn't care less.

i'm using Jim's comp now actually because he's in the shower, he's out now, so i've better go.
it's been a slow day, but still fine.
will update more soon.

Courage to make the choice

2006-10-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

Today during law class, julie told me that the law senior whom editted our assignments, thought that i did a good job, and i should not be in engine fact, but in the law faculty instead.

when julie told me, i was speechless, as it came as a shock, so i didn't say a word, and just smiled at julie and the pretended it didn't mean anything and i went back to concentrate on the lecture.

but it did, i couldn't get it out of my mind. it did mattered to me, i was happy and sad at the same time. it was wild and depressing at the same time, i couldn't get it out of my mind. again and again, this thing keep on coming back to haunt me.

i was happy because a senior law student actually thinks that i'm good enuf to be studying law, the thing that i love the most, and i'm so honoured to be able to do well in the subject i liked.

i'm sad because, i'm not a law student and i'm good in law
i'm sad because, i'm doing something i found to be boring
i'm sad because, i don't have the courage to be different
i'm sad because, i'm stuck with this choice

on top of all, i'm sad because, i had never really been good at something which i realyl really liked, something which is my very own passion, something which is my heart and soul, but it's not within my grasp, because i'm weak, because i'm a coward, because i'm just too tired.

for now, i'm still deciding, on what i should do,
should i continue and complete my engineering degree?
or should i drop out now to do my law?
is it ok to change my mind?
will my life change for the betteR? or for the worse?
it's too confusing, i need guidance, i need help,
and on top of all, i need faith, in myself, and .........

MIddle of the day in Convo Week.

2006-08-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

This morning i woke up with the worse mental state ever. i felt like skipping classes, but i'm afraid there will be a quiz, so i went to class anyway. True enuf, there isn't any quiz, so after the first 1 of lecture is done, i'm so damn tired and my eyes are giving up on me.
But i have another lecture from 10-12 which seems such a peril to endure. it's undeniable that i'm a big lazy bum but it's times like this that i wish there isn't so many judgemental ppl around.

Since i'm so tired and i wouldn't have paid any attention in class anyway, i took off from the 10-12 lecture and went to have breakfast. As far as i'm concerned, i need to get back on track for my classes on the rest of the day. and then, i told my friend that i'll be back later and all of them gave me a kind of look, something like a bewildered stare. It's not pleasant i can say that.

whatever, fuck them, i took off anyway, now i'm in the comp lab posting this. thank god for making someone invent BLOG, or else, i would need to go screw a tranny to feel relieved. LOL

P/s - for the record, i've never screw a tranny b4. LOL.

Almost 11am now, need to sneak into class quietly. damn i have those judgemental bastards.
don't u agree? oh well, u would be a loser too if u actually spend time reading this. LOL

Laterz
T

Late nights and idle minds

2006-07-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

The pass few days have been less than stimulating, both to my mind and my body.
It's now the 3rd week of classes and yet i have yet to get with the program.
Late nights was compulsory as there are much to do, lab reports, math tutorials, preview next lecture's notes and tonnes more.
it my mind still too idle to accept any thing that i'm suppose to be learning?
there is a theory that if u leave your mind idle enuf, u might be reverted back into a primate.
Is it possible?
Let's examine this theory,

Do i scratch my back while studying? YES
Am i hungry all the time? YES
Do i dun bath unless it's too hot? YES
Do i just leave the container of food lying around until is stinks before getting rid of it? YES
Am i getting more and more hairy by the day? YES

After much research, i guess i am going towards that direction. LOL.
Gosh, it's amazing how human behaviour is so much alike to the animals which we dun admit that we are one of them.

Another mystery of life? Not really, just a bunch of crap i write after i'm tired of writing my lab report. haha. LOL

Peace Out.
T

IS OUR house haunted?? +BANGKOK trip!!`

2006-07-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

Geezman, it's unbelievable. It seems like tonnes of calamitoes keeps on happening to everyone in the house. First one get's dumped and deeply hurt by some ugly retarded chick. then another one get's dump before even started anything by a smart decent but yet somehow manage to screw him over kinda girl. Then i found out i can never get a first class degree no matter how high my cgpa is when i graduate. Then now one of my housemates' grandma just pass away moments ago.
is this fucking house cursed of what? I think we need to perform some kind of exorcism ritual or else these calamities will keep on coming.

Beside that, i'm now doing some research onbudget hotels available in bangkok. surprisingly, there are plenty of travellers' lounge which costs less than rm 30/night! damn. i should have gone earlier! hehe. now i'm busy booking for flights. hope i can get some cheap flights and then bangkok here we go!! hehe.

Peace out and cross your fingers for me!
T

A New beginning? or false start?

2006-07-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since i started out my journey as a sophomore in university. It feels good to know that i've survived 1 full year of uni life. haha. Anyway, today is also the first day which they juniors will be approachin the seniors to request for a buddy. I personally think that being a senior have tonnes of benefits. HEHE. i'll get into that next time.

Today's post is about relationship, good and bad.

Buddy of mine, being dumped lately, have been really down. The thing is that the other party is having a blast but he is left in the land of despair. So now, he's sulking at home, listening to radio alone in his room, and more so than often, pretend that he's fine and try to get with the system.
However, all the housemates know of his problem and are very concerned. Even though he shared with us the nature of his problem, he doesn't seems to find comfort in confiding in us.
Everyone's worried bout him but there's nothing we can do since he himself doesn't want any help from us. With that being said, "cheer Up uncle!"

Then another housemate of mine, was kinda dumped too but the difference is that he and the other party have never officially start dating. LOL. i think miss-communications and lack of passion is the core of the problem. So now he's too sulking in his room and doing nothing.

My house seems to house lots of loser,jokers,fatass and what not, ain't it? lol.
Oh well, guess we are all screwed up one way or another.

Just a few days ago, i decided my recovery period is over. It's time to get back into the game. My ex hav already moved on so long ago, so i should too. Therefore, i've changed my friendster's status, from "it's complicated" to "single". hear that u ladies out there? biggy here is up for grabs again! hehe.

Peace out,
T

Jet Lagsss though never been on a plane b4

2006-06-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

for the pass few days i've been having jet lags. I woke up around 5pm. then go to bed around 7 or 8 in the morning. the weird thing is that i have not been on a plane before and what else another time zone? lol.
This occurance is due to the fact that i'm usually out at night till early in the morning about 4-5am then i'll stay up and watch movies till around 7am, then only i'll go to bed. So a few days of this repetition i ended up changing my sleep cycle from the normal human being's into a permanent jet-lag traveller. Shit man i've no idea how i'm gonna survive when i start my next semester.
And so, it's my latest goal to change my sleepin cycle again so that i won't fuck up another year of my uni life.
My first year of Uni life was a disaster, i broke up with my first in the first semester, then i get below dean's list for the first semester, i gain tonnes of fat, and now i had to retake one of my second semester's subject. Can u imagine? it's like a time bomb that keeps on going off.
first the breakup, boom!, then the first semester's results came, boom! then it just keeps on BOOM BOOMBOOMBOOMBOOM!

haiz. Enuf chatter, heard this song last night, but couldn't find it on the net. so i gotta record it down from the movie. it's lyrics very good. Enjoy and peace out!

~*AnotheR YoU*~

In another year when we are dust,
when the big waves have rolled through,
perhaps there'll be another me,
waiting here for another you.

I had a dream or was it a memory
and it wouldn't leave me alone
i've got a fear of losing you
and it catch me to the bone.

So, baby kiss me
while the planets turn
let me light the stars that burn
oh baby kiss me to stop time
and allow me,
to stay mine.

Wooooooo.......ooooooo......Another you...
Wooooooo.......ooooooo......Another you...

by - Sophia Hawthorne

Conversation with an accident victim Juls.

2006-06-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yeah a friend of mine met an accident on the way back from vacation. Apparently the bus they were riding in brokedown and they had to disembark and wait by the side of the highway. After inspection, the problem seems to be that the tyre came out of the wheel's rim.
As they are fixing the problem, somehow, thru some screwd up cosmic logic, a piece of metal apparently from the bus's rim was lying on the road. As it is a highway, it's only natural that the vehicles that passes by are of high speed. And so, a lorry, which was going very fast, ran over the piece of metal from the rim, causes the metal to fly to the side of the round at very high speed and hit a friend of mine on her face.
yea, ON HER FACE! It's like so random right? lol.
Anyway, luckily no serious injury was inflicted, just a small wound on the forehead. So, she'll be fine in a couple of weeks.

These were the sms we exchanged :
K : how are u girl? heard bout what happend from Jac.back at home adi?
(after about 10 hours later)
Juls : Sorry i was asleep in the van and didn't notice your sms. reached home at 2am, everything's fine and i'm back at home resting now.
K : so nothing serious right? everything's ok?
Juls : + i'm so sad now, and veli painful.
K : Will heal in a weeks time lah. haha.
Juls : I can't watch football without my specs! haiz...

what the?? I thought she'll be worried if it'll leave a scar and all she could think about is joga bonito. lol.
go figure! haha

2006-06-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

the posts betweem June and April had been removed for personal reason and in order to increase suitability for the public. haha.
Hope you'll understand! Hav a gud day!

Halfway thru the holidays

2006-06-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

yeah i've already spent half of my 2months holidays doing nothing but sleeping,eating and watching tonnes of video, movies, animes and soap opera.
kinda pathetic dun u think?
My normal day would be, wake up about half pass noon, then go to the kitchen to scrap for food. bring up to my room and then eat while watching something.
now i'm kinda hooked on an anime entitled "Yakitate Japan!". It's about baking and kinda fun to watch. Besides that i'm still following some anime which is quite interesting too. to name afew, "fate/stay night", "bleach", and "Ouran High School Host Club".
all of these have very very different themes and very different settings. haha.
anyhow, just feeling bored, so figure i'll post something.

To all u eager bloggers out there, GET A LIFE! oh well, who i'm kidding. I'm one too. LOL

CHaoz.
crossing my finger hoping i wouldn't kill myself today.

Rock bottom?

2006-05-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

today i found out that my 2nd semester results was just what i feared, i failed 1 subject.

I've had a dream a couple of weeks ago . It was about me looking at my results slip and found out that i have failed that subject. I've been very worried about it ever since. But now, it's a reality, it's now a fact, and there's nothing i can do about it.

The pain is excrutiating,

I feel like something's eating me inside, somethings yearning to blast out, but nothing came out.
I want to cry, but dry were my tears.
I wanted to sulk and isolate myself, i couldn't cause there's so much things going on around me.
I wanted to scream, but no voice could be heard,
I wanted to confide in a person, but there isn't anyone i would rather trust,
I wanted to just give up, but i know i couldn't,
I wanted to just forget about it and move on, But I could not, couldn't not acknowlegde it.

I've started thinking that i have not had a major disaster happened to me before, until now.
I've never felt so low in my whole 21 years of life, even though i didnt know i could go to another level in depression.
I've longed for someone to notice me for who i am, what i could do, but now clarity has been brought upon me, that i'm just an ordinary, non-supernatural, non-talented and dim witted person.
I've tried to convince myself that i could get the lecturer to raise my grade to the bare minimum passing grade, but it was too distant, i couldn't be optimistic anymore, i'm at my limit....
I've tried to ignored it for the time being, it just doesn't escape my mind, it just doesn't wanna leave my thoughts, it's haunting me, it's killing me.

Did i deserved this? Did i bring this on myself? DO i do nothing when i know i would have the possibility to be like this? Those are questions that i would never answer, not even to myself.
Chan Siong Kiat has died today, in a way that no one could imagine. I'll never be the same, and i'm sorry for ppl who will have to deal with me in the future, that i'll never be the same again...

Reality check ,do we need one once in a while?

2006-05-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

For the pass few days, i have been bored and have nothing to do at home. Semester break has started for bout a week now and it's a long boring holidays actually. Well anyway, about a couple of days ago, i was chatting online with a friend, and somehow the conversation turn ugly when i mistakenly gave out a blunt comment.

And so, the dirty laundry kinda starts unfolding from there, my friend was offended by my "ZERO ill-intentioned" comment and lots of shit started to come out. My friend mentioned that i have some attitute problem. The problem forementioned includes { selfish, rude when telling ppl off, arrogant, and blowing my own trumpet}.

As i slowly trying to comprehend what the accusations are all about, it came to me that mayb i was insensitive to other feelings i have never had any comment otherwise. let's examine the prolems one by one shall we? {my friend would be refered to as A from now on}

1.Selfish
-supposedly i was selfish by the way i treat other ppl. A who was in rage quoted an incident not far long ago, about a year ago. The incident was about a trip that was organized by A and i was eager to attend but something else happend and iwasn't able to make it. I've thoroughly discussed the problem with A and A was very understanding bout my situation and A was so kind as to offer help to solved the trip's problem for me
Well, A who was angry at me a couple of days ago, said to me that, i was very selfish regarding the last year's trip. That i didn't even make an effort to find a person to substitute my place and that A had to do everything for me.
I admit that i didn't do anything regardinng that but it's just because A has kindly offered his help for me. . I was so glad that i didn't have to deal with the trip's problem as there's more stuff that i needed to deal with. I didn't know that i would be penalised for that incident.
All and all, it's disappointing that A can judge my character base on a single incident and thru what other ppl say though both of us have been thru alot of stuff together.

2.arrogant + blowing my own trumpet
This is regarding the way i speak in front of ppl. A claims that when someone talk to me, i would repeat the same thing but in a more fancier language. It's like i'm purposely trying to show off how good my command of the language is.
As for me, i only repeat what other ppl tells me so that i can verify the facts and so that they can listen to what they are convey so that no misunderstanding will occur. this way if the meaning were somehow distorted on the time of transmission, they would have noticed it and could rephrase their sentences. That's not a bad thing right? It's really heartbreaking that a friend i thought who is very well-versed with my personality would think of me in such an ill-mannered.

In the end, i've very let down by the fact that ppl who i thought that knows the true me doesn't really appear to be what i thought in the end. All these while that i was putting in so much effort in helping those friends who's in need, has been nothing futile.
I admit that being judge by ppl who are close to u are very heartbreaking, and i've had my fair share of it for such a long time. Do these judgement will ever end? Will there be someone who truly sees me as what i'm really worth?

Guess it's not up to my hands in the end. nevertheless, i will not change my principle no matter how many times these incident happens, and i know that caring and helping the ppl around me, even though they might not appreciate it, is what i truly enjoy doing for the rest of my life. It's what i want to be, it's what i would like to world to be.

~Endless Sorrow - Ayu~

What if you're alone
and suddenly become blind,
and what if despite that
you kept walking forward?

Come here, take my hand

If you've only got
one wing...
Even if I only have
one wing left...

What if there was
nothing to believe in,
and what if all that's left
is despair?

Please, hear my prayers

in this era overflowing
with wingless angels.

If you are left
with no wings...
I still have one
wing left, so...
Together... together...

Life's so short that is doesn't seem worth living.

2006-04-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i saw on a local newspaper, that 2 of my high school juniors were involved in an accident and both of them died. It really struck me that my life could end in just the next 5 mins or the next day or the following week. It's very depressing when u think about it, that human life's so fragile and we are just like a slab of tofu. Try throwing a piece of tofu down a 9 floor building, the end result would be just like a human carcass, minus the blood.
Therefore, i've decided to update my blog with the stuff that i'll normally neva say to ppl in real life. Mayb my realisations for the day, my DEEP feeling. uhhhh, that's too gay, just scrap that.
Anyway, now i'm in the library studying. Ironic ain't it? Oh well, life goes on and on and on.........
Just like a ferris wheel.
Gotta go, this library's comp really sucks.

T

End, Fin, Ende, Owari, Tamat, Benito

2006-04-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

Towards the end now..... i have 1 paper left which would be on the upcoming thursday and that would mark the end of my first year in university. I guess my first year kinda just fly thru without me noticing me. Before i know it, it's 2nd semester's final exam. So college life was too good that u kinda forget that time passing you by effortlessly.
Now i'm doing research for my final assignment of the year, "instrumentation control system". It's about using an sensor and develope a system for controling. Yeah yeah it sound geeky, but i'm in engineering, wha'da'ya expect? LOL.
Today was my "Circuit analysis 1" paper and i think i didn't as well as my peers. Previous papers were alright. Guess this semester would be fine just like last sem although i didn't manage to get into the dean list.
During my time in 6th form, i realise that life's not just about studying, that i've missed out on alot of experiences which can't be gain back. Therefore, i've made a vow then that i'll enjoy my life as much and possible and make every experience educational. It's now my aim to experience as much stuff as possible.

Regarding the previous post, guess i was just at a down point after being stressed out with tonnes of stuff. Now? The old BIG T is back. DUn worry, i ain't gonna giv up just yet. And sad face doesn't really match my head's shape. lol.

Anyway, gotta go back to researching. lol. SIenz. Happy day to you world.

T

The follow-up

2006-04-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

The previous post wasn't finished the last time i was online .It's been about a week since i written that post, and now i'm not that agitated anymore. The previous matter is just something trivial which i think shouldn't bother me at all. Why all the fuss u ask? oh well, guess sometimes ppl like to whine, even when that's not what they normally do.
Life's back to the same old same old yet again. Classes has ended, assignments due date are approaching and the finals would be next monday. It's not something i would say everyday but for now, life's ok.
Looking back the couple of weeks, i had had it tough and full or nonsense(other ppl's nonsense).
On the bright side of my life, we've successfully found a house to fit all 9 guys. U can imagine how dirty the house can be with 9 hormon raging males. lol.
Anyway, i'm still stressed out and hope to find a haven or i'll go mad. Last night, i felt that i was all alone in the world, and that NEVER happens to me.
Am i depressed? am i not? Guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Last week of class.

2006-04-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

As the end of the semester approaches, more and more ppl are now anxious about the upcoming final examinations. I myself had not and will not be a fan of examinations but there's nothing i can do but try my best to score. It's such a pain that everyone had to endure for 1 and a half decade since we reach the age of 5. if u do the math, almost half of our life are spent studying and taking examinations. Aint that pathetic? As ifwe don't spend enuf time trying to gain ppl's approval already.
yeah, i'm pretty stressed out during this last couple of week. I've a friend who's in trouble with her girlfriend and he's kinda involved with another girl. He(M) broke up with her long distant girlfriend last week and he didn't tell anyone about it except the other girl Y. I didn't know about it until i accidentally read one of Y's sms in her phone. I was real shocked when i saw it. I didn't how to react but since we are still havin lecture at that time, i just walked to my place and kept quiet.
The next day i approach him and asked him why didn't he tell me but he just rub it off like it's no big deal. That pisses me off alot. I've been very supportive of his actions though some of them i personally doesn't approve of. But he's treating me as an outsider.
Ok, i can understand that he doesn't wanna talk about it, but later, after a week's time, his interactions with Y began to heat up and they practically talked bout everything.(including his EX-girl). That's the second thing i'm pissed at, he doesn't really know that girl so well and he choose to open up to her while a friend like me is willing to listen but he just ignores me.
I have no idea why i'm so pissed off when come to M. Mayb i'm just stressed out and need some escapegoat to relieve some tension, or i just thought that i was one of his close friend whom he can confide in.

trophy design and bla bals

2006-04-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

Post Wedding Bells Part Uno

2006-03-22T02:01:00.000+08:00

My brother, Bryan got married last weekend to a beautiful 24-year old girl named Jesse. On saturday which is the tradition groom's side's open house party, my whole family organized the normal stuff. Buffet dinner with satay and tonnes of beers. Lots of ppl turn up for the party and that was when i met up with my old old play-mate. haha. DUn b naughty, i meant sand-box kinda playmate not the playboys type. lol. her name was Wei and she has grown so much. Escpecially in the chest area. LOL. She's kinda the ugly duckling type which is not so much to look at when she was a kid but grow up to be a knocker. LOL.
So i finally sit down and talked to her and reminisence bout old times. B4 she left for another party, i manage to catch a pic with her. Will upload next post.
Stay tuned!

Peace,
T

STPM anxiety and gay movies

2006-03-15T16:02:00.000+08:00

2molo would be the day when everyone will cry or laugh all over again.It's the STPM results day. Everyone's anxious. My cousin Chloe called me a couple of hours ago and told me how nervous she was and she dunoo how to face everyone tomolo after she take her results. I assured her that everything would be ok.

I couldn't help but wonder, why do ppl still worry about stuff that is beyond their control? Take Chloe for example, the exam is over, she had wrote what she had wrote during that time. NOthing's gonna change that. So, her results would be just as it is. Since that's the case? why do Chloe still has anxiety attacks? Are we always so consumed by what we think what other ppl are thinking? I'm a complex paradox and i'm sure no one in their right mind would even give a shit about this. Most ppl in the world would just stand by and be thankful that they ain't the one who's suffering.

Is that so wrong? I believe that nothing can be categorize into groups as we are infact deceiving ourselves if we think that we can avoid these dillemmas, this shades of grey and live in a world of black and white decisions.

Movin on, last night i watched the movie which has caused much Hoo Haa all over the world. "Brokeback mountain". It's a romance movie about 2 cowboys who fell in love in the mid sixties and all the complications that arise after that. At the end of the movie, one of them tragicly passed away and the other was left to live alone in despair. Overall, it's a very moving story and very well directed. That's why it was awarded Best Director from THe Oscars 2006.

If u are interested in this kinda movies, i have another suggetions, try "The Trip". This one is similiar to the former one but it's at a more civilized age. I think it's filmed on 80s background. This one is too a romantic drama and yes the ending is about the same with one of the lover died. lol.

Anyway, i'm actually not interested in the movie's content. I'm only interested in their music score. Usually gay-themed movies have very good soundtracks which includes countless of unforgettable music scores. the music from both of this movie are remarkable. Another one that i can never forget, it " the Object of MY Affection" starring Jen Aniston and Paul Rudd.It's amazing, check it out if u wanna be exposed to new cultures of music. I can guarantee that u'll b blown away.

iS project part E link.
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1141/is_n19_v33/ai_19241378
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1594/is_n4_v8/ai_20048285
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1571/is_14_18/ai_84971445
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_qa3859/is_200203/ai_n9023542
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1252/is_2_127/ai_60054354

SPM post mortem.

2006-03-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday 13 March was the day when the SPM results are out. Lots of ppl hugged each other out of joy as well as despair after getting their results. It's a heart breakin scene.
Phyec! Nah i couldn't be bothered at all about SPM. haha. It's kinda boring and pretentious that a group of ppl gather in scholl and trying to consol ppl after they get their results.
Today's newspaper reported that after a gurl took her results, she tried to commit suicide from the 3rd floor of her school building. haha. Ain't that fun? lol
Most ppl think that exams is the sole representative of one's ability to survive in this world, but in my opinion, i think that's just a bunch of overrated stupide geeks talking.
A person can't be judge by it's academic ability solely. Dun u agree?
ANyway, leave ya to ponder bout this, going for clubbin.

Peace,
T

Apartment/House Hunting!

2006-03-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

Yup, it's official. I'm gonna be movin out of the hostel and into a real house/apartment with a group of coursemates including Unc Jim, Small-EYes-Simon, MIng ANNIE, Boung Nyung aka Gallen, Chow MUN AKA grasshopper, Ah Kats and last of all, FUcker Nick.
Just hours ago, we went to check out a house we just found. It's a double storey, 5+2room and 4bath. Sounds pretty good ain't it? haha. Anyway, its something we would like to get but the prob is that someone is already ahead of us. The other group are suppose to pay the deposit for the house by this friday, and so, the realtor told us that if they are unable to come up with the money, we'll get the house! yay! haha, but it's a long shot.
So now we r back to square one, still looking for a place to crash for next semester. It's difficult to find a place with reasonable rent and decent environment in the city. Just as they say, In KL, you'll always be looking for an apartment, a job and a bf/gf. Guess it's just another vicious circle. haiz........ crossing my fingers for his coming friday! lol

The end of an era..

2006-02-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday when i was reading evon's message, i came to think about life and how it just kind of slip away so easily. It's so difficult nowadays to find a person that truly understand what "losing tim" means, but i think for those who had lost someone dear, it wouldn't be too far from that idea.
Lately, my friend Evon has been depressed due to the death of her dearest cousin which could be as close as a siblings and then her aunt's passing a few weeks later. This aunt is the mother of her cousin who had just passed too. I know life can be very cruel to our eyes and mind. We always like to think that being in this world is such a drag. Always wanting something better, faster,prettier and the we fell out of sight of what truly is important in our lives.
Those important things might be love, family, and life itself. It differs from an a person to another individual. Some ppl thinks that with alot of money they can live happily with their family. Yes of course with money we can buy all the comforts in the world but do we really want it all? Or do we just need stuff to masquerade our flaws?
Life's full of mystery and we are left pondering on our own all the time. Think bout it, u'll know what i'm saying.

Peace,
T

Pain, it's excrutiating ~By Evon~

2006-02-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

"I remember reading some expressions like, "the world come crushing down".. "heart being pierced & sliced".. "a series of unfortunate events".. I never could able to picture what it's supposed to be like.. Until now, I've endured it all myself.. Yeah.. MY world did come crushing down.. MY heart has been pierced & sliced.. MY life journey now has been a series of unfortunate events.. At first glance, readers might think I'm talking about bullshits like being heartbroken in my love life.. No, that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about REAL stuffs.. REAL happenings.. Whatever heartache others might feel & get from a broken relationship with their so-called-puppy-love bf/gf, those are bullshits.. It's nothing. You cry your heart out & life turns back to its normal mode for you the next day. You go on with life, & those "heartaches" remains as a unhappy agenda & that's it.. It doesn't eat up your soul alive. Those heartaches never suck your soul out & leave you living in "Azkaban".. Mine did. It sucked & ate my soul.. I could hardly feel REAL happiness & being 100% cheery.. All I could do is put on a mask & face the "world".. You never know how to ache until you've really loved. I guess that's really true.. Never in my life I'd imagine myself crying to bed & waking up crying, feeling my heart being sliced & pierced.. I couldn't describe how it really feels. You can only imagine. Seeing your loved ones, lying lifelessly in the coffin, knowing that you'll never be able to talk, laugh, hug & speak with them.. It kills you alive.. You know they aren't breathing, but it seems like they're only sleeping.. They looked cold & stiff, yet.. they looked peaceful. You kept asking them, "Why must you leave me?" & you'll never get any answers. You kept asking, "God, why are you doing this to me?" & again, you get NO answers.. Seeing your loved one's coffin being lowered 6 feet underground, you know they will remain there forever & life, perhaps will still go on.. The sun still rises in the east & sets in the west.. Time will goes & everyone else's life goes on as usual.. If it happened once to you, it's bad enough. Imagine if it happened to another of your loved one in less than 6 weeks time.. Attending 2 funerals in such a short time, seeing the same environment & remorse faces again.. People crying, people grieving.. Yet, their life goes back to normal the very next day. They could talk & laugh like it happened ages ago. I couldn't.. I couldn't cry & show my grieve at the funeral. I truly grieve AFTER.. On my own. I couldn't let them go. I don't want to let them go. He's my favourite cousin. Who would have understood? She's my most respectable & favourite aunt. Who could replace her? No one else.. Never.. They've ended life's journey much earlier than me. They've gone further without me.. Life will never be the same ever without them.. When I close my eyes, I could always picture them.. then it flipped back to the chapter where they're buried.. the moments when I stood there alone, staring at their faces.. in the identical coffins they've had."

Dear Evon, hope you'll get past all the grieve and come out brighter than ever.

Love,
T

iS MId semester test! ~no big deal~

2006-02-22T16:02:00.000+08:00

yeah. it's test time, and yet i'm surfing the net though i was told that usage of computer during test time is not permitted. Well, i say, Fuck it.
lol.
SO, what's up with me lately u say?
Ok, let's recap the past 2 weeks, ok...... return from chinese new year break reluctantly coz i was still very IN the festive mood. wander around like a zombie in campus for a week till friday and finally was restored to my usual self just becoz it's the weekend. lol.

Then MID semester break starts, went back home again, hang out with Quek~AKA MagNuS and some other ppl. Then on thursday came bac k up to KL to try to catch up on some revision. "KONONNYA" lol that 's the term we use to describe someone who wanna do something but ended up doing the opposite thing.
Yeah, i ended up playing games and going out with my coursemates instead of studying like i planned
C'mon, one can't be blame just becoz one have weak determination? lol. Alright, i won't try to weasel outta it. lol. And so it goes, i march into the lecture hall on monday without a single string of idea of what i was supposed to know. As suicidal as it seems, i didn't meant for it to be like this. T'_'T

Anyhow, it's not wednesday, and i'm back in the library for another iS class which is actually a blessing in disguise. It's the only class that i don't have to listen to the lecturer just becoz everyone else is doing the same.
This is what i have learnt lately to be known as the "common practise/bandwagon fallacies" haha.

Test startin soon.
Chaoz.
T

iS class yet again just before CNY!

2006-01-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

Yup i'm in iS class yet again. hehe. and it's the CNY weekend! yay! wooohooooo!
This sunday will be the Chinese New Year! yay!
Oh well, i'm just kidding ya. not really that excited. haha. but might as well be.
Hope will be having a blast during this short holidays.
Anyway, still have 2 lab reports to rush.
Gonna hafta finsih everything before chinese new year as it isn't auspicious if u gotta do homework during the festive season. So i've got no choice. haiz...... it's not really fun being a nerd or a dweep? lol.

Oh yeah! I just remembered, last weekend i went to my college prom night! hehe. It was very grand an dit was held in the ballroom of a 5 star hotel. hehe. ain't that fancy? lol.
I've got tonnes of pics taken too. Will upload asap! hehe.
Gotta go, iS lecture is scolding us for not paying attention in class. hehe.
Chaoz and god speed.

K.

iS class in the library..yet again.

2006-01-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

It's the 2nd time around now. I've been in the library for a couple of times but it still doesn't appeal much to me. would rather be curled up at home watchin anime and lazy around all day long.
No choice today, had iS class. So now i'm here, sitting in the comp lab, not paying attention to the lecturer at all, just bz updating my blog, checkin mails and friendster.
Wonder will i ever get caught? hehehe. oh well, doesn't matter anyway. DUn really care for iS.
I'm just here for the high speed internet and basically clean up my "virtual" crap. haha.

Today have been normal, had calculus in the morning. The lecturer was so err.. nerdy i suppose? then went for critical thinkin for the first time. the lecturer was lame. I dun even bothered to remember his name. Why do we need to take such nonsensical subjects? As if we need some one to teach us how to use our brain. lol.

Overall today would be great i think. doing nothing and watch anime. Dinner dunno what to eat. hehe, mayb pizza. sluuuurrrrrrrp. saliva drippin now. hehe.

Thanks for viewin my blog! will update 2molo. or the day after that, or the day after after that......... etc etc etc u get the hint. hehe.

TreY

Is Grievin something u should do often?

2006-01-03T11:43:00.000+08:00

A few days before entering 2006, alot of stuff happend to a ppl around me. All of those are bad stuff.

first, my dear friend Nove, lost her 19 year-old cousin, in an accident back in my hometown.
then come my godbro, Johnd, who lost his 17 year-old cousin in a freak accident near his house.
then my buddy, Ryan lost his 90++ year old grandma to an old disease for a long time.
On new year's eve, my friend Min-Ann was mugged when he attended a countdown party in the city center with his girlfriend.

SO what do ya think? Will it be an auspicious year? or would it be bad news all year round?
Guess we'll need to just wait and see.

Anyway, i've got alots of condolences to say
To Nove, hope you'll learn to let go and move on with your own life.
To Johnd, god loved him too much to let him live down here, that's why he took him to be by his side.
To Ryan, be happy that she had had a great life. And it's time to let her go.
To Min-Ann? - haha u deserve it! hahahahahaha. go get a new phone sucka! lol.

Chao for now! will try to keep u peeps updated ya~!

it's been a long pause... but i'm back!

2006-01-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

hey ya'll. it's me again. Biggy here is back in actions.
Another new semester starting off now. Once again i'm back in campus and have no idea what i'm getting myself into this time around. But who cares?
lol. I'm sure i can do it. so do u rite? heehehehe.
The schedule is still alil bit crazy. Monday and Wednesday is like damn packed with lectures and tutorials but tues and thurs onli have a couple of hours of classes.
Weird huh?? Oh well, guess how all these happend?

It's all becoz of those EE students! The schedule is being put in such a way that it favours their schedule. That's why all other engie student have their schedule all messed up!
Unfair ain't it? But life's like that, what ca gonna do? lol.

Anyway, so now i'm in the comp lab surfin the net, doing basically nothing, but it's all good. At least i'm not being cursed by ppl that i dun know of huh? lol. poor EE students. They must be sneezing a whole lot. haha.

....My first time....

2005-10-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

I had my first time today. At 845pm, in a serene and quiet place with air-condition. It felt so nice and comfy. I couldn't believe what i have been missing out all these while. To think that i had limit myself from the pleasure of life is just so darn depressing.

Anyhow, it's alright now. I've finally done it and it felt awesome. Moments ago, i was hot and sweaty and i couldn't wait till i can come. But it finally happend. I came, to the University Malaya main library. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

hahahahahaha. gotcha didn't i? lol. Dun be so dirty minded. lol.
Yup, it's my first time in the main library at night. It's very quiet and cold in here.
Hehe. i get to use the computers in the lab too. hehe. THe connection is awesome. Think they areusing T1 but who cares? as long as i can check my mails and write bunch of crap that u fools like to read about then it's fine by me. lol.

I finally can resume eating meat today. I have been a vegetarian for the past 10 days in conjunction with the celebration of the 9 Emperor god festival. I made a wish last year on the altar that i hope to be able to score straight As in my stpm. I also mentioned that if i weren't suppose to get what i want, then as least give me the courage to accept what i had deserved.

And true enuf, i missed 1 A. It was depressing but hell i could do alot more worse. So, it took a while but i was able to accept my "failure" if u can call it that. seems like i'm not straight As material. I missed when i was in F5, and i miss again when i was in F6. lol. Guess i'm not as smart as i hoped i would be.

AH, 4get boutthose ancient depressing stuff. HEHE. Many stuff happens for a reason and i ain't gonna go against the cosmic order or anything .hahaha.
SO now i've finish crappin and you've finish reading. Guess i'll be going off then. hehe.
CHaoz.

Rose's Wedding..

2005-09-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back at home again. It's rose's wedding this weekend. SO i've got no choice but to come home to attend 2 ppl exchanging vowes and promise to love each other 4eva.
It's kinda embarassing for me. lol coz i'm going to be the one collecting the Ang Pows and gifts from ppl. haha sort of like the 'tai yi long' (big ear hole). haha
Oh well, guess when u r the one without anything important task at hand, then they'll just hand u the bad stuff. lol.

Haiz..... this weekend was suppose to be so much fun!! My coursemates planned a trip to GENTING. A local highlands resort with lots of fun stuff to do. But sadly i couldn't go along with them due to this wedding. All of the peeps r already there by now. Having fun under the clod atmosphere. I luvvvvvv the cold air up there. I would wanna by a house up there and just go there for the weekend. IT's going to be a dream house that can be used by anyone i know. haha.

Dun wanna complain anymore. See after the weekend whether i'll be so cranky. I'll let ya know, dun worry. lol.

Btw, Happy birthday to Vilin. Muaks and may all ya dreams come true.

Summer holiday finally ends...

2005-09-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

Yup, it's official. The summer hols are finally over. Gone were the days when I fun was all that matters. I'm still bumped out since so many of my peeps are leaving to country to continue with their studies.

First to go was Jndrell, or Duan Yan. He left on Thursday morning, I didn't even get the chance to see him off nor did I hang out with him one last time before he left. I had class on Thursday and I could only be back in town by afternoon but his flight was on the morning. He was a good friend and we shared lots of good times together while we were in high school. But I guess it's just as well. He's going into a new phase of his life, and I should be glad for him. haha. I sure hope life in Nottingham would be good for him. mayb it could be like the movie 'Notting Hill' haha. Though I'm not sure it's the same city but who cares? LOL.

Then comes Justin or Jits, which is so one of my bestest buds. He was a smart one. Earned himself a scholarship to study law in UK. Jits, Jits, Jits. So many moments, so many memories, and so many secrets. Haha. He's one of the few ppl that I'm envious of. In a good way of course. haha. He is going to London School of Economics(LSE) in London, UK for Law.**The day before he left, we went out for breakfast. He was talking on the phone with another friend who we are suppose to meet up while driving, and a police on bike actually saw him and we were flagged down by the police. haha. What an unforgettable moment. haha. It was the first time he had ever get a traffic summon. haha. **
Then, he had to leave, and it was such a depressing day. On Saturday morning, I wanted to send him a text message right before he leave ,wishing him best of luck and bon voyage, but I overslept, and missed his flight time. I'm still regretting it right now.... Sigh....

After that, it's Seok Mei. The timid gurl which was one of the victims during the unfortunate robbery which I was a victim too. haha
She's leaving tomolo(Sunday 12pm flight) and she's complaining that she doesn't wanna leave home! haha. She's only back for a couple of week for her mid-semester break but I guess home will always be the best place on earth. haha. Supposedly we were going for a movie with her and Pei Chin, Chiu Sia and Scott but somehow that didn't happen. haha. We ended up hanging out at the mall for about 4hours. Can u believe it?LOL. 4 hours of non-stop talking. She's a talker I can giv u that, she can go all day without having to drink or eat anything at all! haha.
Then I had to leave for another appointment. I promised to call her before she go tomolo. Hope I wouldn't miss that again..... Crossing my finger now. haha.

Lastly, it's Aaron. It funny that I have only known this guy for bout a couple of weeks and it feels like we are long lost friends. Met him a couple weeks back on a girl's party which we both know the chick but not each other. We just clicked instantly. It was freaky but in a good way. LOL. He's such a nice guy, smart(future doc). LOL. He's studying to be a MD in Kings College in London, UK. Not too shabby huh? haha. Oh well, we both share a passion in J-pop music and it was fun exchanging songs that we like. haha.
Just now I went for a last supper with him before he leave. His flight is tomolo noon. I had a great time with him Stella Saila and Azzwa. We talked and laughed and shared stories bout the Lantern Festival. haha. About the lady on the moon and bunnies making mooncakes on the moon. haha. It was hilarious. But all good times must come to an end, it was midnight and we all had curfew. So that was the end of the last supper with Aaron.
I really really enjoy his company, and I hope there's many to come in the future.

Good Luck to Justin, Jndrell, Aaron and Seok Mei. May good fortune shine on you.
haha. It's going to be hard from now on, not to mention boring. But I guess life still have to go on and on and on and on...

Mid Sem break is right around da corner

2005-08-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

Yup, it's official, 3 more days till my sem break starts though it onli last for about a week.
However, i'm glad that we have a few days off right before the mid semester exams. It's difficult to get into the examination mode after such a long rest. I haven't been investing my time in academic activities at all for the pass 6 months or so.

DO u have any idea how rusty i have been? lol. U wouldn't believe it even if u saw it with your own eyes. I'm practically a moron now. Not to mention that i can't even do simple calculations without using the calculator. Lol. that's amusing and depressing at the same time. Haiz.

nevertheless, i'll try to get into the momentum to start studying, but it ain't going to be a pretty sight. I know that, and everyone who knows me know that what they would expect from me. Haiz........ wish i didn't have to become the person i once was. But i guess it's inevitable, just like the song by shakira.

Inevitable - Lyrics by Shakira Mebarak

si es cuestin de confesarno
s preparar caf
y no entiendo de ftbol
creo que alguna vez fu infiel
juego mal hasta el parqus
y jams uso reloj
y para ser ms franca nadie
piensa en ti como lo hago yo
aunque te d lo mismo
si es cuestin de confesar
nunca duermo antes de diez
ni me bao los domingos
la verdad es que tambin
lloro una vez al mes
sobre todo cuando hay fro
conmigo nada es fcil
ya debes saber
me conoces bien
y sin ti todo es tan aburrido

CHorus~
el cielo est cansado ya de ver
la lluvia caer
y cada da que pasa es uno ms
parecido a ayer
no encuentro forma a alguna de
olvidarte porque
seguir amndote es inevitable
Siempre supe que es mejor
cuando hay que hablar de dos
empezar por uno mismo
ya sabrs la situacin
aqu todo est peor
pero al menos an respiro
no tienes que decirlo
no vas a volver
te conozco bien
ya buscar qu hacer conmigo

Bridge~
Siempre supe que es mejor
Cuando hay que hablar de dos
Empezar por uno mismo

Muaks world. C ya all soon.Now gotta go for C++ test and i ain't know any shit at all. i'm screwed, big time.

Day after the funeral.

2005-08-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

It's tuesday. Grandma's funeral ended yesterday.Everyone's still in low spirits, including myself.
Now i'm back in campus and trying to go on with my life as if it were any other ordinary day.
It's amazing how self-deceit/denial works.
Everything could be very wrong in an obvious way but yet the heart can trick the brain into thinking that everything is otherwise.
It's a pity that grandma passed away so quickly. It onli took 4 days, from a healthy old folk to a dead meat six feet under.
The funeral took 5 days, everyday it's routine. Woke up at 8, shower, put on plain white clothes, then head towards the funeral home.
That's the common ritual for a buddism follower.
Nothing much to comment anymore, as i'm still not yet fully recovered from the loss of a person that i hold so dearly to my heart.

What a smoggy day.

2005-08-10T15:53:00.000+08:00

Today's class was boring enuf. As usual we have algebra in the morning , then C++ programming and then we have an algebra tutorial class.
Sounds damn bored aint it? haha.
oh well, just all in a days work.
The haze is very thick today. It's not a suitable environment for anyone to be outdoor. Haiz....
The thing is, i wanted to go to the convocation carnival! But too bad the traffic is very bad and the smoggy air is just killin me slowly and smellyly. hahahaha.
So i ended up going back to college for lunch. Haiz, the same old same old 2.70 lunch set. haizzz.

SO i'm thinkin, what the heck am i doing? now is suppose to be the prime of my life! but i ain't feeling anyting at all. is it just me or is everyone else feelin the same?
Guess we'll find out soon. haha

tata for now!
Muaks, Love,
Trey.

First post in the 5th week of campus life.

2005-08-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

Yup, it's the 5th week already. Times passes considerably fast but unfortunately, not fast enuf for me. haha. U see, i'm staying in 12th college and I'm studying engineering. That already boring enuf aint it? I also didn't join a single activity at all. Not in my college and also not in my faculty. haha. But that's the way I like it. Who cares anyway?BTW, I finish the book adi. It's quite good actually. Girls, if u read that book, remember to have a box of tissue at the of the book.
The ending is very overwhelming.

I think those activities are so lame that they make me puke. It's very pointless and it takes up lots of your time. The following are the summary of what I think about joining college/faculty activities.

1) U are signing up to be a permanent slave in the system.
2) U are subjecting yourself to degradation by seniors and other authorities figure.
3) U are running around like idiots and doesn't have a clue what the heck u are doing.
4) U are becoming a moron day by day.
5) U are under a lot of unnecessary stress and anxiety which could result in hypertensive.
6) I'll lose precious time which could be put to better use. (EAI STUDIES????)
7) U''ll waste lots and lots and lots of $$ in mobilephone credit.
8) U learn nothing from those activities becoz those who are running it are as blur as u too.
9) U'll get to know more ppl who are just as idiotic as yourself.
and finally,
10) U'll not get any satisfaction not will u get any credit for anything u have done/sacrificed/donated to the activity.

See u guys? It's definitely not worth it. But nevertheless, the world will always have amples of supply of idiots. haha. Plus, there can be no genius if there are no idiots. LOL
am I right or am I right? LOL
Shout out to my peeps everywhere from north USM till south NUS to east UMS to west UM.

That's all for now.
Trey.

Just a quick one before class.

2005-07-21T08:47:00.000+08:00

Today's a fine day as i'll be going back home by evening. The lecturer has conveniently change the friday class to thursday. therefore, i can go back to melaka by thursday evening! haha. ain't that a blessing. haha

I arrived early today for class, so decided to post small one. haha.
Good news! i found a buddy alredy! haha. i thank god for that. haha.
the others are still desperately searching for their buddies. i feel sorry for them but at the same time i'm glad that i'm not one of them anymore.
Isn't life always like this?
U feel sorry for other's misfortune and secretly u are glad that u ain't suffering from the same predicament. dun u agree? i'll giv u some time to ponder on that while i go to class!

Muaks,
Trey.

Thursday Noon in the comp lab

2005-07-14T12:46:00.000+08:00

Today is free and easy day. No classese after 11am, just now went for lunch with ah Yen and now since free so come down to the lab for some net-surfing.
yesterday didn't get the chance to post anything as the lab assistant was scolding ppl who ain't using the comp for academic reasons. lol.
Obviously i'm 1 of them .lol.
Oh well, here i am now so i'm gonna tell u what u hav missed.

Yesterday, classes as usual and after that at 1pm, i went for I-week(introduction week) organized by the engineering faculty seniors. Just a seminar to provide some info and to promote their research project. Yup, it's boring alright. Fortunately, my group were seated at the back of the lecture hall, so i get to look around ocassionaly sleep. haha.
Nevertheless, the seniors effort should be deeply appreciated by us juniors although most of us dun really see what's the point. haha it's ironic but it's true. Oops, forgotten 1 detail, halfway thru the seminar, i snuck out and went back to my room. lol. am i naughty or what? haha.

In the evening, Andy came to my hostel to visit me. we had dinner together and then he went back to his hostel. Then on my way back, i saw the KMPP ppl(jian xing, kim kit, man yee and some others that i dun really know.)
They are all 1 year younger than me and they dun really seem that different at all. I admit that 1 year isn't very long but i think mentally they are still way back. (no offence). haha
Ah, 1 more thing, there's a hostel occupants gathering at 10pm which i conveniently was sleeping and couldn't attend. =) haha.

SO back to present day, woke up 8pm as usual and hurried to wash my face+brush my teeth. then i headed straight to the engie faculty for classes. Class end around 11am and i'm free for the rest of the day. that's why i'm posting now. lol. the lab isn't very crowded today, so the lab assistant isn't being the usual bitch. lol. anyway, me going off liao.

another sub for the day,

clapx2 eleh clapx2 eleh
menyampah!
clapx2 eleh clapx2 eleh
menyampah!
clapx2 eleh clapx2 eleh
menyampah! menyampah! menyampah!!!!!!!

p.s - this is the book i'm reading now. quite interesting. check it out!

Muaks!
Tret

Yet another day in campus..

2005-07-12T10:55:00.000+08:00

Halo again. it's tuesday and just a couple of hours later i'll be meeting my seniors from my faculty. Everyone says that the key for surviving the university life is by having lots of seniors to help you out. It sounds comforting but when it comes to getting to know new ppl, it's kinda embarassing and i'm not quite comfortable with it.

BULLSHITT!!!!!!!! haha. I LUV meeting ppl and getting to know new ppl. It's fun and exciting. haha.
However, regarding the buddy system, which is that we depend solely on seniors help regarding our academic matters, it's kinda degrading really. It's as though we can't take care of our own self. and this also put some question marks on our education system.

If a person can pass with flying colours without having to work hard for it, then what kind of graduate would we be producing? All of them are just empty vessels?
I bet everyone wanna graduate with honours and on the dean list, but i'm sure some of the are more deserving than others.
I could only pray that i'm the former group rather than the latter ones.
Ultimately, it's just the same as the theory of relativity, 1 cannot exist wihthout the other opposite.
Yin cannot exist without yang, cheating cannot exist without being caught, and stupidity wouldn't exist if there isn't any intelligence.

feelin a bit extra intense today. will try to cool down soon.
1 sub for the day,
muaks muaks ki ki,
muaks muaks ka ka,
muaks muaks ki ki ka ka,
muaks muaks MUAKKKKKSSSSSS!!!!

Peace out,
Trey

First post after entering Uni Life

2005-07-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

Haiyoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wasssup Wassup world!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's been so so so so long since my last post.
For the past week, i've been attending orientation week in UM( called HaluanSiswa).
Basically it's just a bunch of seminars about the university and the faculties.
AND 1 more, it's for the senior to rag the juniors.

Yup, we've been thru alot for the past week. The accumulative sleeping hours for the past week doesn't even pass 1/2 a day. which means, we are allowed to sleep for about 1 1/2 hour per day. lol. It's depressing and very very tiring.

Everyday we are forced to sit on the floor in the hall. lol. My ass now still doesn't feel anything becoz i think all the senses there are permanently numbed. lol.
I'm living in college 12 which is the largest and most high-tech hostel of all. and the seniors are 1 of a kind too. lol.

Just last night, we had our last initiation ritual. which is to jump into the lake in 12th college.
Lol. it was fun but dirty. really really messy. haha.
Still havn't bring up my comp from home, so dun think i can post every day.

Gomen ne~!

Gtg, having lecture in about an hour and still haven't have lunch.
Muaks~ i love the internet so so so so much!

~Saigo No Entri ~ Last Entry ~

2005-07-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

Today's my last day in town. By first light, i'll be leavin for college. And i'll be there for 4 years.
It's a big step in my life. I'm overwhelmed by emotions and i'm kinda confuse now.
Previously i have always wanted to leave home and to go out there and live my own life, but when the time comes, i dun really wanna go, becoz everything's perfect the way it is now.
I know i'm going there for a better future and all, but in the end, that doesn't matter. So why are we all so caught up with all of these? All the fuss of gettin a good education, a good job, earn good money, and then have a successful career.

It's such a drag that ppl likes to judge others. Just as i too judge ppl. As perfect as i wannabe a totally liberal ppl, there are some things that i don't approve of too. Guess the world is made this way.

Anyway, everything's packed and i'm ready to go.
This will be my last entry. KIDDING! u wish lar! lol.
But it's going to be about 2 weeks until my next post.
Be patient and wait for it!
Sayonara MLK. Sayonara SM, Sayonara Queks, Sayonara everyone i know who's going off to college.
HOpe you'll have a great life.

Peace Out,
Kiats.

The first to go

2005-07-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

It's friday, and it the day the first one of my bunch to leave town for Uni. I feel like i'm on "Laguna Beach". A reality series on MTV focus on a bunch of teens and the life.
There's an episode entitled "The First To GO". which is quite similiar to what happen today.

In Laguna Beach(LB), Trey is the first one to leave and everyone's so so sad and his friend Stephen is the only guy that went to see him off.
So, what happen today was Quek was the first to leave town for USM way north in PEnang. and i was the only guy there to see him off.

This is what happen today,
8.00 am - alarm clock on my HP rang, but i'm reluctant to wake up.
9.30 am - it rang again and i'm still sleepy.
10.00 am - SM called me to wake me up. reluctantly, i woke up, get dressed and head to Quek's house.
10.15 am - When i reach quek's house, his huge van was gone. and so, i tot he has already left his house. so i called him and fortunately, he's still in his house. haha. his parents went out for soemthing.
10.17 am - Quek invited me into his humble residence and it was weird for sure. The situation was kinda intense. BEcoz quek left out something!!!!!!!!! Haha. and so i offer him a ride to go get his last item for his university admission.
10.30 am - We reach the bank and pick up SM.
11.00 am - We went back to quek's place and he did his final touches. at the same time, the PCSM group was completed. CS and PC finally reach quek's house.
11.15 am - We all sat in the living room and chat with mrs.quek and mr.quek while waitin for quek.
12.00 am - Finally, everything's ready and we all leave quek's house.
12.01 am - At the door, SM gav Quek a last souvenir and then broke down and cried. It was funny and sad at the same time. THen all 4 of us, ( me+PCSM sisters) wave goodbye to quek.

Thats all. It was a sad day for everyone becoz today is the day that everything is real. ALL of us are leaving for UNi and everything's which was so surreal hav finally began to become reality.

For Quek, Live strong and best of luck. Friends forever.

The dawn had arrived......

2005-06-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

yup, it's here, undeniably, inavoidably, haiseh. IT's here liao lor. And i was kinda scared about what nonsense major would i be offered at all in the local universities. ANyway, there's another person who's more anxious about it that me. haha. And i'm glad that i have such a person in my life. (u know who u r =) )
ANyway, i got my first choice. Telecommunications Eng.
sounds geeky ain't it? lol. i think so too. so by 4 years time, i would be a geek wearin 3meters thick glasses with karipap hairstyle and wear tight ill fitting slacks. it's sick lah. But there's nothing i can do about it since i have no other choice. i LOVE $$$$$$$$. so hafta do this stuff . haha.

But i'm glad i get UM. which is very near to my hometown. so every now and then i can come back home to enjoy the air conditioning and catch up with friends and family.

THings i would definitely miss about MLK...
1. mom
2. mom's food
3. mom's nagging
4. lil godbro JOhnd,
5. lil niece Xin XIn,
6. room air conditioning
7. 24/7 internet access!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn i will feel so so primitive when i reach campus. I can't live without the net. It's going to be such torment living under those circumstances. haiz.....
but it's just as well. Mayb i can learn not to depend so much on technology.
haha.
anyway, enuf for now.
will post more before i leave town...

Team Academy and Hair Studio

2005-06-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

Oh well, woke up early today and planned to stay in for the day. But guess what? haha, being such a popular guy(trying to be obnoxious), Chiets call during noon time and asked me out.
I was like what the hell, i've got nothing much line up for the afternoon too.
ok ok, i hav something to do alright, but i'm just too lazy to do any of it. I'm suppose to buy SEMBELIT(constipation) medicine for Fiona and then pay the utilities bill. haha. it sounds like a housewife's job so i couldn't be bothered to do any of it. lol.

And so, i went to pick up Chiets and i didn't really know where the heck was his crib. (expected) Therefore, i just simply drive and manage to arrive about 2 lots before his house. haha. he's staying at #30 and i was at #26. haha. not bad huh for someone who hav no idea where was his house. haha.

Then, we went for a hair cut at the Team Academy and Hair Studio. haha. most of the guys like to go there for haircuts and hairwash becoz they hav a special rates. If u let the hairstyling students practise on you, then u pay less. haha. I didn't wanna hav a haircut so i only went for a hairwash but chiets went for the full package(haircut+wash) lol. It was so so hillarious. haha.

This is what happen.....
1. both of us sat down on the chair.
2. 2 students came up and wanna wash out hair.
3. i got the cute girl, chiets dunno get the guy or the other gurl.
4. mine was sweet and keep on asking whether i'm comfortable while chiets was the total opposite of mine. lol. the one washing chiets' head was just trying to finsh the job ASAP. lol.
5. we go to the other seats to rinse our head, and my hairwash girl was a newbie. lol .so, she ended up accidentally spraying water to chiets. haha. i was laughing like hell. lol.
6. after finish rinsing and i got up, i realise that the back of my shirt was wet. the girl was so embarassed and she keep on apologizing to me but i just kept on laughing. lol.
7. she offered to blow dry my shirt and i agreed, and at the end, she said 'thank you' to me. hahahahahahaha. that was the funniest part! lol
8. as for chiet, anohte noobie guy came over to cut his hair. the guy didn't know how to cut at all. lol. and so, his teacher( chiets called him the sissy guy) came over to do 1 half of his head and ask the noobie guy to do the other half.
9. after about 1/2 hour, the noobie guy screwd up. haha. he cut the other half too short. lol. and so, the sissy guy had to save Chiets' head. haha. so, the hair cut actually took about 1 hour .lol.
10. Chiet's regreted tat he wanted to go there for a haircut. and me, being an usual asshole as i always was, just tembak him by saying, u want it cheap mah. haha.

Then, we went to MP for lunch and then headed home.
Tonite's going to be waiting for the University results..... it's going to be intense.